Damn. Slice if pizza and bag of chips is all I ate in 24 hours....really really feel bad.

Glass cuts deep and thin and really hurts...

Broke two flipsies on accident.

Comics got stolen.

Fuck. This. Week.

Odd day. Got attacked by seniors and loved it. Water ftw.

Got to see Laura's i-really-love-this-but-wont-admit-it smile with watch.

Got a hug when i gave Lindsey her watch. Pretty awesome. ( so Sue me, I still have tiny crush xD)

Sam seems to actually be considering inviting me to her party. Which would be pool party...she'd be pretty hot. And I totally think she digs me. And once again. Tiny crush. Sue me.

Got raped by hail.



Almost saw a crash.


Someone jacked my comics D:<

Still couldn't say how I feel to Laura.

You know. I think I fear acceptance more than rejection.

Funny. I think I fear Laura and Alex because they make me think and know me better than myself.


And you know. Letting go and accepting rage made me feel so much better recently.

And yeah. I know im being an ass on some of this. And a hypocrite. And that lots of this is my fault. But at least I admit that.


But man. I dunno how to deal with Laura. Do risks outweigh gains? Or vice versa. And if she says yes...what..

And really tired.. think I have minor head injury from hail. Head hurts. Bad.

Amazing weekend is amazing

God, such a great one. Such. A. Great. One.

God i love doctor who. I really do. Such a great show.

And you know, I am really glad, i think I actually have this as my place to myself again, rather than for others.

Its funny as everything falls into place

aha, you know, that is exactly it. What I was missing. I am pissed, I was bullshitting myself. It is not guilt i feel, no it is, but not over what i thought. And it is not all the different things i feel. Its rage. Hate. I dont care for you, you annoy me, honestly you are a hypocrite and piss me off. That is it. I dont care anymore, beyond the small bit i never can get rid of.

And you know, it is true, history repeats, a lot. Funny funny.

But you know, I can see full well whats going to happen, and it wont take long. I know what it will be and I find it amusing at how obvious it seems.

Oh man I am in a sadist mood.

But God, even driving I feel a bit confident on, with practice soon ill get better. Its like magic.
Or anything like it.

And really thinking I will ask Laura out. Ya know. Always better taking the risk.

Hahaha. Sense of self, sense of concept. Interesting interesting.

You know. In the end Laura probably has forever been my perfect person.

And you know. I wanna try weed. Its so...lacking in any real issue. Why is it bad?

Drinking im still iffy on.

Odd. I find some of the friends, the ones i care about I just dont...care to deal with. I like them, but have no worries over them. Its odd. Its like a theory not fact.

Then half of them i am really hating more and more.

And then Laura, dammit, i am falling too hard.

And failing at cooking cinnamon buns

Some people are so shallow. Realizing what Stephanie meant and said. God. I don't like vagueblogging. But on off chance someone reads this I don't want to start crap. But getting confirmed that she meant that...even if for a friend, that is so shallow it is sickening...