Breathe in, breathe out.

I need to calm. I need to stop lashing out, saying the wrong thing, and doing all this stupid shit. I need to stop the sabotage. Calm myself. Use meditation of old. I need to gain control over my emotions and stop leting them use me. Stop letting them rampantly control me. I need to block them, control them. I had that brilliant apathy and distance, i can regain and use that to calm myself. I have dealt with worse. I need to stop letting everyone elses crap make me paranoid and make me paranoid and overreact. In a week or so everything will be noraml and good. I know this. I wont let emotions fuck me over. I have control of them. Breathe in. Breathe out. Clear mind. Life will be fine.