God. I am so close to breaking...but doing better...I am becoming who i should have been last year...no two years...hell, all those years ago.

I am stopping with the idiotic shortsighted selfish behavior. Focusing more on school and everything. I am stopping with the insults, the scaring, everything like that, trying to become better in general...

I am somehow getting good grades...thank the lord....but it still hurts when parents say things like "you are finally getting the grades"...God, I have been trying this whole year...the only bad one was Parks, and i am actually struggling there, way to support me on that parents...

But god dammit i can, I will, I have to change...I have to...