Nononono why am I falling for her nononono why why am I that dumb. She isn't even in this country. I hate long distance...

Why am I still wanting Emily's advice...

Why am I so stupid...

I hate this.
And god dammit, no, don't offer phone back...nononono. If I have it back I can fall to old issues...and have no excuse to ignore people. Nononono...

God no....

What is wrong with me?