Its all a God damn game. Fucking hell why am I so awful. I use and abuse. I treat it like a damn game or story. Plotting for drama or trying to find the right combo to win or other shit. God damn I am such a horrible person ...why do they put up with me...

Whys it always end at the very beginning...

Why do I always cry unable to trust anyone...

Why am I so prideful and horrible. Heh. Laura thinks she is a seclusive person...at least she seems to trust people...