Monday, November 12, 2007
fun new test!
Okay as many of you know, i am idiotic at time. Well today i was dared to poik laura's boob again, and amazingly , seh did not get as pissed when i did it with my finger, than when with a keychain. So me and micheal are going to record results of me poiking her evryday with my finger and my keychain, and record how pissed seh gets, this should be very fun. Oh yeh, if you never hear from me again, i am dead!
Sunday, November 11, 2007
humans are strange, very mch so.
Why is it we humans are so wierd when it comes to relationships, we flirt from afar happily, but when it comes down to the matter, we beat around the bush. We all try to garner attention in different ways, some act like asses, some flat out act uductive, some act strange adn wierd. Why?
Why can't we be straightup with our feelings? why do some of us feel less, so much more? Why is it all so confusing, why can't the world tell us what is going on, why can't i know why i am here? Tell some one , god damnit, i beesech you all for a answer, i am tired living in an illusion, played by all when creating life, or by whatever great diety controls us all, just tell me, for i swear i won't play this putrid game anylonger, i will break the rules of life, i shall get away from it, and i shall win!
Why can't we be straightup with our feelings? why do some of us feel less, so much more? Why is it all so confusing, why can't the world tell us what is going on, why can't i know why i am here? Tell some one , god damnit, i beesech you all for a answer, i am tired living in an illusion, played by all when creating life, or by whatever great diety controls us all, just tell me, for i swear i won't play this putrid game anylonger, i will break the rules of life, i shall get away from it, and i shall win!
Thursday, November 1, 2007
my thoughts (prepare for a LOOOOOOOOOOOONNNNNNNGGGGGG ramble)
Okay today was interesting. We started a unit on Anne Frank. I knew this was coming, so it was no surprise, but i found myself happy and getting very emotional over all of it, but i will talk about that later, right now to first big point.
Well as we were starting, we were looking at an overview and were asked what dignity was. So we went on about it. Then the student teacher told us about " inter something" value. She said it was that we humans had value for being us. Unlike material possessions like diamonds, which had value because we gave them value. So then Nathan Davis -the class clown, who tries to ask random questions a lot, just for laughs. Or attention, because some are good points- asked " Do animals have the inter whachamajigger word?", I had already been thinking this. But the teacher told us no. They could not think, that they were not as advanced. Neither Nathan nor i agreed with this. After class we argued More with her. We pointed out They cared for young, they could build systems of social status and hierarchy. She then told us " But do they do that because of a conscience(Sp?), or instinct?", and, "can they think, and realize they are thinking, like we can".
I was appalled by this, she was saying that they were stupid,ignorant, creatures in a way. I mean, a lion, it could kill many upon many of its prey, but in the end doesn't it kill only a few? Just because it has to, so it can survive? We humans do that, heck we kill just for sport, but no one minds,at all because " Its for sport.". Yet if we have domesticated animals -instead of others like undomesticated birds,deer, etc.- like dogs fight, or we kill them, it is considered "inhumane". We can kill animals like cows, for their skin, and pigs, so we can make footballs and prada purses, and other items. And get their meat to eat as an extra. We humans are so greedy and selfish, and obsessed with material possessions, that we get the stuff that is okay to take, because it helps us to survive. I realize much of what animals do is instinct, but isn't instinct part of much of our lifestyle? In the more primal activities of it. doesn't instinct come in in football, or sports like that. Or even during desperate times, like life threatening. Also when we are in trouble. We humans are prone to using instinct just as much. But are we to say that the creation of a situational hierarchy within a pack of wolves, were one is the leader, is instinct? that would be to say how all leaders come into power in our world is instinct! I refuse to agree with that.
And to say that an animal cannot think, and realize it. I wish to know, how can we know? we cannot read their minds. We say that when a dog sits and stares at the moon, it is thinking, but it can't know it is. How do we know its thoughts aren't much like ours? Wondering whether or not in space their are other creature's as it stares into the sky, wondering if we will meet them, and if they will be kind or not, will they be dog like, or human like?Then suddenly thinking to itself "Why am i thinking about this?", Much like we humans do from time to time. We can say that those who are mentally retarded, and is lesser in intelligence than a monkey -who shares similar characteristics with humans, and differs by only 3% D.N.A- can think and realize it, yet the monkey cannot. The whole idea is purely hypocritical.
Also if these idea's were to be true, then would that say that when we were under Britain's rule, we had no value. That slaves in those times had no value? But that would be contradicting her statement since she says all humans have value for who they are. But how she says animals have no value, is to say in the time when people were slaves, they had no value either.
Another student who was agreeing with the teacher mentioned that the animal's cannot communicate like us. This was the most absurd comment i had heard. dogs communicate with dogs, cats are known to have different meanings for different meows. Heck, some species of animals are able to fully communicate with other species and -peacefully- interact. That is more than can be said for humans. We do not communicate with other species, we merely teach them, like for dog "Raised hand means sit", nor can we even communicate peacefully with other humans. So animals are defiantly on par with us there.
All of this was rushing through my head as i walked home. I was staring towards the ground, thinking and thinking about this. Until i spotted a beetle, a minuscule stupid, tiny brained beetle, or is it. Scientists say that the sizes of a humans rain does not affect their knowledge, so why cant this apply to other animals? They say that because a insects brain is tiny, it is stupid. Yet ants run when they see us attacking them, they fix their anthills when damaged, and build complex societies. Who is to say that the small insects we kill daily, couldn't be on a thinking level on par to our own?
Are scientist's and humans so hypocritical that that say one thing about humans, and state that it also applies to other animals, but only when it makes us seem better. Although if it comes to something like brain sizes not affecting intelligence for humans -even though by what they say it should apply ot all animals- it doesn't apply to insects. But if what they say about insects small brains making them dumb, shouldn't elephants, and whale be some of the smartest creatures we ever saw.
Also we humans are known to only ever use ten percent of our brains in a lifetime. Maybe other animals use more of their brains, and it puts them on par with us. I believe we are not better than other animals because our adaptations have given us a edge against them. Because we think on different levels(or so e think). But i believe because we are so arrogant, so violent, so hypocritical, that we are worse. When it boils down to it, is it goat burps, or humans and technology causing more damage to our ozone layer. And if you believe it is the goat, you are so completely hypocritical and arrogant, i wish you never to read my blog again.
It is amazing how much this event is affecting me. Most historical event i take no heed, no care of. Yet the holocaust, it is different. Why? Why is that when i think about what Adolph Hitler did, all the millions that died, i get angry unlike i ever had? Why is it that when i think about Adolph, i hate him for what he did, but i can see that he was in no Way a bad leader, no to do what he did, he was a brilliant leader! Is it because when i first started to learn about it last year, i was very emotionally unstable, about to commit suicide, even trying with pills a few times? Or maybe Anne Frank. Yes she is probably one of the bigger reasons.
I believe i resemble her, in many ways. She had it all before, nothing was missing, yet she says she felt empty at times. She was self critical, she was able to think much more deeply than most thirteen year olds do. I think i will find the two or three entries that hit me, yes i will find it soon, and put it on.
It is strange though, nothing has ever really hit me this much, inspired such emotions of hatred, anger, sadness, happiness in me. I wish to learn More and more, i plan on renting books, i believe i will read all of Anne's dairy. For that is all i can do to learn about her. I almost wish she existed now - in our day and time- because i believe, the two of us would be able to get close.
Although, maybe in all of this, i am just over thinking things, proving points laid by my teacher and peer. Could they have an argument to back this up? Maybe , but i firmly believe what i say. and i shall defiantly learn all i can about the holocaust. So expect many more entries pertaining to these subjects.
Well as we were starting, we were looking at an overview and were asked what dignity was. So we went on about it. Then the student teacher told us about " inter something" value. She said it was that we humans had value for being us. Unlike material possessions like diamonds, which had value because we gave them value. So then Nathan Davis -the class clown, who tries to ask random questions a lot, just for laughs. Or attention, because some are good points- asked " Do animals have the inter whachamajigger word?", I had already been thinking this. But the teacher told us no. They could not think, that they were not as advanced. Neither Nathan nor i agreed with this. After class we argued More with her. We pointed out They cared for young, they could build systems of social status and hierarchy. She then told us " But do they do that because of a conscience(Sp?), or instinct?", and, "can they think, and realize they are thinking, like we can".
I was appalled by this, she was saying that they were stupid,ignorant, creatures in a way. I mean, a lion, it could kill many upon many of its prey, but in the end doesn't it kill only a few? Just because it has to, so it can survive? We humans do that, heck we kill just for sport, but no one minds,at all because " Its for sport.". Yet if we have domesticated animals -instead of others like undomesticated birds,deer, etc.- like dogs fight, or we kill them, it is considered "inhumane". We can kill animals like cows, for their skin, and pigs, so we can make footballs and prada purses, and other items. And get their meat to eat as an extra. We humans are so greedy and selfish, and obsessed with material possessions, that we get the stuff that is okay to take, because it helps us to survive. I realize much of what animals do is instinct, but isn't instinct part of much of our lifestyle? In the more primal activities of it. doesn't instinct come in in football, or sports like that. Or even during desperate times, like life threatening. Also when we are in trouble. We humans are prone to using instinct just as much. But are we to say that the creation of a situational hierarchy within a pack of wolves, were one is the leader, is instinct? that would be to say how all leaders come into power in our world is instinct! I refuse to agree with that.
And to say that an animal cannot think, and realize it. I wish to know, how can we know? we cannot read their minds. We say that when a dog sits and stares at the moon, it is thinking, but it can't know it is. How do we know its thoughts aren't much like ours? Wondering whether or not in space their are other creature's as it stares into the sky, wondering if we will meet them, and if they will be kind or not, will they be dog like, or human like?Then suddenly thinking to itself "Why am i thinking about this?", Much like we humans do from time to time. We can say that those who are mentally retarded, and is lesser in intelligence than a monkey -who shares similar characteristics with humans, and differs by only 3% D.N.A- can think and realize it, yet the monkey cannot. The whole idea is purely hypocritical.
Also if these idea's were to be true, then would that say that when we were under Britain's rule, we had no value. That slaves in those times had no value? But that would be contradicting her statement since she says all humans have value for who they are. But how she says animals have no value, is to say in the time when people were slaves, they had no value either.
Another student who was agreeing with the teacher mentioned that the animal's cannot communicate like us. This was the most absurd comment i had heard. dogs communicate with dogs, cats are known to have different meanings for different meows. Heck, some species of animals are able to fully communicate with other species and -peacefully- interact. That is more than can be said for humans. We do not communicate with other species, we merely teach them, like for dog "Raised hand means sit", nor can we even communicate peacefully with other humans. So animals are defiantly on par with us there.
All of this was rushing through my head as i walked home. I was staring towards the ground, thinking and thinking about this. Until i spotted a beetle, a minuscule stupid, tiny brained beetle, or is it. Scientists say that the sizes of a humans rain does not affect their knowledge, so why cant this apply to other animals? They say that because a insects brain is tiny, it is stupid. Yet ants run when they see us attacking them, they fix their anthills when damaged, and build complex societies. Who is to say that the small insects we kill daily, couldn't be on a thinking level on par to our own?
Are scientist's and humans so hypocritical that that say one thing about humans, and state that it also applies to other animals, but only when it makes us seem better. Although if it comes to something like brain sizes not affecting intelligence for humans -even though by what they say it should apply ot all animals- it doesn't apply to insects. But if what they say about insects small brains making them dumb, shouldn't elephants, and whale be some of the smartest creatures we ever saw.
Also we humans are known to only ever use ten percent of our brains in a lifetime. Maybe other animals use more of their brains, and it puts them on par with us. I believe we are not better than other animals because our adaptations have given us a edge against them. Because we think on different levels(or so e think). But i believe because we are so arrogant, so violent, so hypocritical, that we are worse. When it boils down to it, is it goat burps, or humans and technology causing more damage to our ozone layer. And if you believe it is the goat, you are so completely hypocritical and arrogant, i wish you never to read my blog again.
It is amazing how much this event is affecting me. Most historical event i take no heed, no care of. Yet the holocaust, it is different. Why? Why is that when i think about what Adolph Hitler did, all the millions that died, i get angry unlike i ever had? Why is it that when i think about Adolph, i hate him for what he did, but i can see that he was in no Way a bad leader, no to do what he did, he was a brilliant leader! Is it because when i first started to learn about it last year, i was very emotionally unstable, about to commit suicide, even trying with pills a few times? Or maybe Anne Frank. Yes she is probably one of the bigger reasons.
I believe i resemble her, in many ways. She had it all before, nothing was missing, yet she says she felt empty at times. She was self critical, she was able to think much more deeply than most thirteen year olds do. I think i will find the two or three entries that hit me, yes i will find it soon, and put it on.
It is strange though, nothing has ever really hit me this much, inspired such emotions of hatred, anger, sadness, happiness in me. I wish to learn More and more, i plan on renting books, i believe i will read all of Anne's dairy. For that is all i can do to learn about her. I almost wish she existed now - in our day and time- because i believe, the two of us would be able to get close.
Although, maybe in all of this, i am just over thinking things, proving points laid by my teacher and peer. Could they have an argument to back this up? Maybe , but i firmly believe what i say. and i shall defiantly learn all i can about the holocaust. So expect many more entries pertaining to these subjects.
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