Wow. Quick work on smiting life.

8:55, power outage, until 12:22. You work really quickly life.

Alll is going well, so i shall jinx it here.

It looks like bren is still talking to us all, sorta....not as much, or am i just not talking to him, am i too scared and worried, to afraid of falling to hate? But while i feel a horrid distancing, not as bad as i thought might occur.

And oddly, i am now getting along with everyone, Laura, Ria, and everyone else.

And God, it is awesome. Taylor is getting so corrupted, where he is playing along with me, do the joking gay things, and just messing around (he even was giving a hug, but then freaked out and had to turn it to a manly back pounding hug xD) but it is so fun. Me and him are getting close and getting insanely fun. thank the lord for him. AND HOLY SHIT HE IS ON AIM!!!!

And I could potentially become a Plant MAstermind on TCGplayer, which means i am considered one of the 2 most knowledgable people in my archetype on that whole site.

And i am falling in love with BC anime, and Jojo's bizzarre adventure.

And all sorts of cool stuff is in august.

But everything is going great....how long till that changes this time....how long....a few days? A week? What...

Need to keep track of my deck lists.

http://forum.tcgplayer.com/showpost.php?p=1726818&postcount=608

http://forum.tcgplayer.com/showthread.php?p=1733685#post1733685

http://forum.tcgplayer.com/showthread.php?t=174595

http://forum.tcgplayer.com/showpost.php?p=1795432&postcount=1019

http://forum.tcgplayer.com/showpost.php?p=1834881&postcount=1291

http://forum.tcgplayer.com/showthread.php?p=1860337#post1860337

http://forum.tcgplayer.com/showthread.php?t=180321

http://forum.tcgplayer.com/showthread.php?t=183171

Epic convo with molly. xD

bookworm1330 (8:41:46 PM): hi!
bookworm1330 (8:41:49 PM): im reallybored!
Colberoth Norris (8:42:05 PM): Cool
bookworm1330 (8:42:20 PM): ...*stare*
Colberoth Norris (8:42:36 PM): Or not cool.
bookworm1330 (8:42:41 PM): right!
Colberoth Norris (8:44:48 PM): i like dos equios commercials
bookworm1330 (8:44:59 PM): ..?
Colberoth Norris (8:45:06 PM): some wierd beer
Colberoth Norris (8:45:16 PM): Talks about the most amazing man in the worlkd
bookworm1330 (8:45:23 PM): ooh, seen that
Colberoth Norris (8:45:23 PM): He speaks french, in russian
bookworm1330 (8:45:37 PM): woow. i liked that, it was funny
bookworm1330 (8:45:50 PM): and then the one he can disarm you with something thing that i cant remember
Colberoth Norris (8:46:10 PM): Yeh
bookworm1330 (8:46:44 PM): yesh
Colberoth Norris (8:47:18 PM): oh so i am not a really good friend! Fine!
bookworm1330 (8:47:44 PM): not a one-on-one go to the movies with friend. I'd hope you agree
Colberoth Norris (8:47:55 PM): BUT WHAT ABOUT OUR LOVE?!?!
bookworm1330 (8:48:49 PM): we have no love! I divorced you!
Colberoth Norris (8:49:47 PM): BUT BUT BUT! GIVE ME A CHANCE!
Colberoth Norris (8:49:52 PM): I CAN BE WHAT YOU NEED!
bookworm1330 (8:50:13 PM): what i need is a stable husband with a good job!
bookworm1330 signed off at 8:50:28 PM
Colberoth Norris (8:50:32 PM): I HAVE THAT AND AMAZING KISSING SKILLS!
Colberoth Norris (8:50:32 PM): I HAVE THAT AND AMAZING KISSING SKILLS!
bookworm1330 signed on at 8:50:48 PM
bookworm1330 (8:51:26 PM): NO! you do not!
Colberoth Norris (8:51:48 PM): I HAVE THE SECOND ONE!
bookworm1330 (8:52:21 PM): still no!
Colberoth Norris (8:52:29 PM): YES
bookworm1330 (8:54:14 PM): I HAVE MOVED ON!
bookworm1330 (8:54:28 PM): he can disarm you with his looks
bookworm1330 (8:54:40 PM): dos equis
Colberoth Norris (8:55:07 PM): Please, give me another shot! I can change!
bookworm1330 (8:55:40 PM): how! tell me how you can change! are you going to get a steady job?!
Colberoth Norris (8:56:23 PM): BRANDON CAN CHANGE! HE JUST DOESNT WANT TO
bookworm1330 (8:57:31 PM): Will you stop talking in third person?
Colberoth Norris (8:57:46 PM): It was a reference to brawlgasm xD
bookworm1330 (8:57:57 PM): i dont watch that.
bookworm1330 (8:58:11 PM): We are not at all alike, our marrage would never last
Colberoth Norris (8:58:59 PM): Forget the logic, rules, and everything else, just give love a chance!
bookworm1330 (8:59:25 PM): WHAT LOVE!?
Colberoth Norris (8:59:32 PM): OUR LOVE
bookworm1330 (9:00:25 PM): OUR LOVE IS DEAD!
Colberoth Norris (9:00:39 PM): FINE YOU SOULLESS BITCH
bookworm1330 (9:01:02 PM): *slaps* Only after you find yourself!
Colberoth Norris (9:01:35 PM): SCREW YOU! *stomps out and slams doors*
bookworm1330 (9:01:52 PM): *sigh* IT WOULD HAVE NEVER WORKED ANYWAY!
Colberoth Norris (9:02:26 PM): IT COULD HAVE
bookworm1330 (9:02:55 PM): You wouldn't have let it!
Colberoth Norris (9:03:24 PM): NO ITS YOU WHO WOULDNT
bookworm1330 (9:03:42 PM): You are the one who left!
bookworm1330 (9:05:39 PM): *sob*
Colberoth Norris (9:06:02 PM): I LEFT BECAUSE YOU ALWAYS PUSHED ME AWAY
bookworm1330 (9:06:32 PM): I NEVER HAD TIME WITH YOU! *sob* YOU WERE NEVER HOME!
Colberoth Norris (9:07:23 PM): YOU ALWAYS KICKED ME OUT AND I TRIED TO GET TIME WITH YOU BUT YOU REFUSED!
bookworm1330 (9:08:19 PM): YOU WOULDN'T LISTEN TO ME!
Colberoth Norris (9:08:51 PM): YOU IGNORED ME
bookworm1330 (9:08:58 PM): I DID NOT!
Colberoth Norris (9:09:23 PM): DID TOO
bookworm1330 (9:09:34 PM): *cry* Lyer!
Colberoth Norris (9:09:46 PM): You can't even spell lier!
bookworm1330 (9:09:53 PM): ((never could))
bookworm1330 (9:10:05 PM): HOW COULD YOU!
Colberoth Norris (9:10:55 PM): EASILY
bookworm1330 (9:12:01 PM): ITS TIMES LIKE THIS THAT I WONDER WHAT I EVER SAW IN YOU!
Colberoth Norris (9:12:17 PM): MY RAVISHING GOOD LOOKS
bookworm1330 (9:12:30 PM): OH YEAAAAH, THAT WAS IT!
Colberoth Norris (9:12:41 PM): DAMN RIGHT IT WAS
bookworm1330 (9:13:02 PM): I SHOULD HAVE GONE WITH THE DOCTOR FROM SACREMENTO!
Colberoth Norris (9:13:15 PM): OH YOU DID NOT BITCH
bookworm1330 (9:13:27 PM): he still calls me!
Colberoth Norris (9:13:49 PM): WELL I STILL TALK TO THE OTHER GIRL
bookworm1330 (9:14:15 PM): I KNOW! THATS PARTALLY WHY I LEFT YOU! CHEATER!
Colberoth Norris (9:14:52 PM): YOUR ONE TO TALK
bookworm1330 (9:15:08 PM): I NEVER CHEATED ON YOU!
Colberoth Norris (9:15:40 PM): I NEVER DID EITHER
bookworm1330 (9:16:15 PM): YOU JUST SAID YOU DID!
Colberoth Norris (9:17:08 PM): I JUST TLAKED!
Colberoth Norris (9:17:13 PM): THAT IS NOT CHEATING
bookworm1330 (9:17:44 PM): YOU DID A LITTLE MORE THEN TALKING! WHERE WERE YOU ALL THOSE TIMES WHEN YOU WERE 'OUT WITH THE BOYS'?
Colberoth Norris (9:17:59 PM): GAMESTOP DAMNIT
bookworm1330 (9:18:25 PM): SHE WORKS AT GAMESTOP?
Colberoth Norris (9:18:37 PM): NO! BUT IT HAS GAMES
bookworm1330 (9:18:56 PM): WHAT WOULD YOU WANT WITH GAMES?!
Colberoth Norris (9:19:32 PM): TO PLAY THEM
bookworm1330 (9:19:57 PM): WE DON'T HAVE A GAME SYSTEM!
Colberoth Norris (9:20:23 PM): I HAVE A DS
bookworm1330 (9:20:59 PM): YOU LEFT ME FOR A GAME!?
Colberoth Norris (9:21:13 PM): NO YOU LEFT ME!
bookworm1330 (9:21:27 PM): YOU WALKED OUT!
Colberoth Norris (9:22:29 PM): AFTER YOU ENDED IT
bookworm1330 (9:22:43 PM): I JUST NEEDED SOME TIME TO THINK!
Colberoth Norris (9:22:59 PM): THAT IS WHAT THEY ALL SAY BEFORE ENDING IT FOREVER
bookworm1330 (9:23:14 PM): IT WAS JUST FOR A FEW DAYS!
Colberoth Norris (9:23:51 PM): FIRST A FEW DAYS, THEN A FEW WEEKS, THEN LIVING WITH MOM FOR A FEW MONTHS, THEN THEY ARE IN THE BAHAMAS WIT SOME GUY
bookworm1330 (9:24:26 PM): I WAS GONE FOR THREE DAYS BEFORE YOU FILED FOR A DIVORCE!
Colberoth Norris (9:25:38 PM): I N EVER FILED FOR A DIVORCE! I NEVER KNEW HOW!
bookworm1330 (9:25:58 PM): WELL SOMEONE WHO WAS NOT ME, AND IN THIS MARRAGE DID!
Colberoth Norris (9:26:20 PM): MAYBE IT WAS THE PUPPY! WE GAVE HIM EQUAL POWER
bookworm1330 (9:26:52 PM): WHAT? MUDKIP DOESN'T EVEN HAVE THUMBS!
Colberoth Norris (9:27:58 PM): BUT EVERYONE LOVES HIM AND HE CAN IMPOSE HIS WILL ON OTHERS
bookworm1330 (9:28:33 PM): STOP BLAMING THE DOG FOR OUR DIVORCE!
Colberoth Norris (9:28:48 PM): STOP BLAMING ME
bookworm1330 (9:29:11 PM): FINE!
bookworm1330 (9:29:56 PM): GO AWAY IF YOU HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO SAY!
Colberoth Norris (9:30:08 PM): ITS MY HOUSE YOUR STILL IN THOUGH
bookworm1330 (9:30:31 PM): I'M THE ONE WITH THE INCOME!
Colberoth Norris (9:30:48 PM): MY NAME IS ON THE DEED
bookworm1330 (9:31:04 PM): IF I LEAVE, YOU LOSE THE HOUSE
Colberoth Norris (9:31:11 PM): NO!
Colberoth Norris (9:31:26 PM): I WILL JUST HOOK UP WITH A RICH YOUNG BROOD TO PAY THE RENT
bookworm1330 (9:31:46 PM): *sob* HOW COULD YOU!
Colberoth Norris (9:32:15 PM): BECAUSE YOU BROKE MY HEART
bookworm1330 (9:32:35 PM): I BROKE YOUR HEART?!
Colberoth Norris (9:32:42 PM): YES
bookworm1330 (9:32:49 PM): THAT IS A LIE!
Colberoth Norris (9:33:20 PM): NO IT IS NOT
bookworm1330 (9:34:08 PM): YES IT IS!
Colberoth Norris (9:34:17 PM): NOT TRUE
bookworm1330 (9:34:26 PM): LIER!
Colberoth Norris (9:34:34 PM): SAYS YOU
bookworm1330 (9:34:47 PM): ITS THE TRUTH!
Colberoth Norris (9:34:56 PM): JUST FORGET IT
bookworm1330 (9:35:10 PM): FINE! LEAVE IF YOU HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO SAY!
Colberoth Norris (9:35:27 PM): GET OUT OF MY HOUSE!
bookworm1330 (9:36:08 PM): *small, studdering voice* You are kicking me out...?
Colberoth Norris (9:36:30 PM): JUST FORGET IT *storms out to a motel*
bookworm1330 (9:36:57 PM): GOODBYE, EX-HUSBAND! *Shuts door* *sigh*
Colberoth Norris (9:37:29 PM): *plays ds*
bookworm1330 (9:38:13 PM): *runs outside* *gives dog*
Colberoth Norris (9:39:08 PM): *dies in motel*
bookworm1330 (9:39:35 PM): *crys* *takes back dog*


This is me and molly's amazing convo xD Also another epic quote from her: After i took a water noodle and held it like a you-know-what, then she was like, "I will blow this...UGH"

And taylor is here. Yay. Haha.

Me:Hey taylor say hi.
Taylor: Hi
Me: Want to say anything to anyone?
Taylor: *in deep wierd almost homo voice* I lost
Taylor: *after reading that* Douche bag
Me: I know. *evil grin*
Me: And taylor has nothing else to say.
Taylor: And i say hi's to all!
Me:..Didn't you say you had nothing else to say?
Taylor: Maybe.
Me: It is fun where i only type and you speak then i write. xD
Taylor: Yes, yes it is.
Me: And He just bashed a barq's root beer, aka gulped it down. But Bashed sounds wrong. xD
Taylor: *has nothing to say*
Me: Well, this was fun, if he ever gets on aim more, we shall totally make these kinds of things xD Buh bye yall.

RAWR RABBIT RAPTOR!

xD I had fun at pool. I became the rabbit raptor. Attacking people like a rabbit and raptor. Rachel joined me. God. I love Rachel, me and her get along, Final Fantasy siblings we are xD And if you show her a vivi shirt she squeels "vivi!" and hugs xD But That was fun, Rabbit Raptorness, gonna do it later. But haha, Rachel is fun to talk to, me and her are getting close~ Too bad she won't be at Ben's to RR with me.

And Laura. You are a cruel evil horrible bitch. YOU DONT DO THAT TO A GUY! AND YOUR AIM SUCKS! FUCKING ASSHOLE! *totally just being melodramatic* But that did hurt >.<

And Laura is leaving for 2 months, and bren is not talking for 2 months. The laura thing is kinda good, i think 2 months without us finding time to fight or argue will mend some issues we are having. But with Bren...i already am finding myself subconsciously forcing myself to hate him, to despise him...to not care so i can't feel pain. I am gonna stop it best i can. Refuse to become a douche towards him. But God, i hate that i do this kinda shit as a defense. Why do i become even worse when i am scared, or threatened, or anything...

And helping Mike Make his deck better.

Okay, i lied, the hypocritical douche can't keep to it a whole day.

I'm falling to hell. I hate myself and all i stand for. I hate that i can't feel empathy. I hate that I really just need someone i can talk to, someone i feel easily able to chat with, and someone who can bring me out of this living hell i am falling to. But Bren is out of the picture, and i dunno if anyone else ever managed to do that for me. And then Ben is having a party, and i can't go. And I just feel like a fucking awful person, and wonder why the fuck anyone deals with me. Why i do. I hate how horrible i am to friends, and to myself. I find everything to slowly passing by. And hate how cold and unfeeling i am. I hate that whenever i get like this, or worried, or scared, i just become crueler. I slowly become even more of a douche (if possible) and i become even more guiltless, normally at least i end up feeling guilty, but instead i feel a disturbing contentness and uncaring at what anyone thinks, and that i might succede in breaking ties. God, what the fuck is wrong with me, besides being a fuckup...

God. Show me one person who can go through hell, without resorting to blaming everything on themselves, without trying to appease others, without unfairly punishing themselves for everything when they only have done some things. Unlike evryone else, unlike me, bren, and every damn one else. All these people who get blamed by everyone else, and soon unfairly blame themselves. The Jon Galt of the world. The man Who could stop the motor of the earth. Heh. Really, such an amazing character...

*breathes* I must calm and beat it all. I still have taylor, and now a days shini too, they help me a ton. Though god, out of all this, i didn't think just losing one friend, one person i barely know aside from online, who i never have seen or spoke to, would hurt so damn bad. I hate that i let myself get this damn close to someone. Raj, Laura S, clint, Scott, all of them, wouldn't i have learned by now how all of this just brings pain...I guess i have, i am obviously self sabotaging and ruining everything that i have. Yay idiocy.

Yay

my deck has been owning the people at big tournament. It is so fucking awesome.

And god, Hitler, go away from my mind. That small human side...it hates everything you did. But the horrible logical side is spouting off shit i hate. I hate the idea of people dieing. But then the other side is saying that if we don't get rid of quite a few people, the whole damn world will be over a few hundred times faster. It tells me the sad, horrible truth that nothing will be around in 50 or a 100 years. That everything horrible is needed. But then there is my small bright side. The side saying it will all work out, give everything some time, that some miracle science will happen, and everyone will be fine, and the world will have its fairy tale ending.

But i know the darker side might be more true. And feel sick thinking of it.

And Year One ruled.


And yay. I feel horrible again. Eh, i must sleep soon. Oh well. I feel better. Awake again xD Less antisocial...oddly it happened after getting 12 hours of sleep, and actually eating...i had barely 9 hours of sleep over 2 days, and realized i had not eaten anything but reeses over the last few days...i need to eat more...it and lack of sleep is bad....But i really hate when i get like that, i am horrible by ignoring people, and worse when i don't, piss em off and be pissed for ignoring, or try and tolerate, and just be even worse than average. Oh yay for lose lose.

AND OH MY FUCKING GOD! I FINALLY GOT MY FUCKING ATLAS SHRUGGED! Now to finish...200/300 pages...i can do it....

Screw it. Fuck it all. I refuse to apologize to anything, i refuse to let anything bring me down, damnit this is my life.

Well. I am back to normal. Though honestly, this was one of my better funks. Was not depressed. Not suicidal. I just was...tired. Actually, that is pretty accurate, those days i had like 8 hours sleep and no food. But after sleep, food, and not reading (since i get too mehish when i read) I am back to normal. Think of it sorta as....enlightment searching! Yeh, like forcing yourself alone for prayer or meditation to sort thoughts out and empower your thoughts.

But i still am fucking sad as hell now. Another friend gone. I know, Bren says he will talk, and in 2 months he makes it sound as if everything will be back to normal, but damnit, i know how untrue that will be. He may start talking again, but the bonds will be severed. They will reform, but no where near as good as before... Damnit. I mean, clint and scott became friends with me, but we are no where near as close as before. This will be it again. And now i lose bren, one of my closest, if not the closest friend. Damnit. He was one of the few i could never stay mad at, always talk to and trust...and one of the few who made me feel assured, made me feel as if i had an idea of what i thought, believed and wanted, who made me feel secure and peaceful. But now that is all gone. Damnit. Well. That was and will be one of the last times i ever shed any tears for anyone. But fuck it. There goes my partner, my friend, screw it all. Screw our stupid party, screw the god powers, screw dictatorship, screw it all. I denounce it all.

God, i wonder what would have happened if i never introduced everyone. What if i left it as me and bren. Then there would have never been shini and phil, he never would have met alex or emily or anyone...none of this would have happened. None of the absolute shit would have happened. None of the amazing times, the friendships, none of the partying, dictations, tieing emily to things, all that... Would it have been better or worse. Oh well. Forget what ifs. I refuse to linger on that shit.

*takes a deep breathe* Okay. Its decided. Today i need to find myself more. Without ignoring others. Today i shall go to tourney. And later see movie with others. Although, i still feel a mehish at the idea of talking to 9th's... Cept Tay, since he is the only friend i still fully trust and can confide in. Sorry femmes, its just way easier talking to a guy about everything than you guys, same probably apply with femmes.

OH MY FUCKING GOD! FORGET WHAT I SAID< GOD FUCKING DAMNIT.

WHERE THE FUCKING GOD DAMNED HELL ARE CHAPTERS 257 AND UP OF GASH BELL DAMNIT. *fucking emo till he fucking completes the fucking god damn fucking addicting fucking series*

Wierd i am not sad, not happy, i just don't want to talk, its like...

Reading. When ever i read I just hate talking to people, i murderously i hate people bothering me while i try to read. I mean hell, i was even reading today (totally not more dresden....DAMNIT I NEED ATLAS SHRUGGED >.< I WANT TO FINISH >.<) And it is also like when i am tired. Most all should know what it is like. When you are just so tired you cannot stand to speak to people. I just feel too lazy to speak to people, it is so irking. I will probably be back to normal after the weekend, yugioh always fixes that.

But i guess in the end, i just need time to be alone. To let anger and such dissapear. Let temptation and hate go away. Let joy and fear simmer. Play some games. And try to actually figure out where i stand, since i still can't for the life of me decide what i believe. Good and Bad still are so foreign...

And tuesday i will probably be back on track fo sho. Since the yugioh box i have been waiting for will come out, giving one of hte cards i desperatly need to me with ease. Yay.

And I am glad Taylor has sense to stop bothering me and let me be alone when i want to be alone. Maria seems not to...

And i feel sick past few days...

But yeh, everyone stop acting worried and such, and all that. I be fine. Just think of it as if I got a new FF game, or Bio 2. Oh. By the way. When i get those, i am purely ignoring all of you. Actually. I am breaking all ties. Unless you play bio 2 also. Yeh. And english dissidia in a little while...

Growing sick and tired of the world, falling to apathy, unsure of what is wrong with me.

God, what is going on with me. I guess i am fully fed up with all the shit of life. No, i am. No guessing involved. I went antisocial today, because i am just sick of everyone. And every relationship...its all pointless in my eyes. Friends, relatives, dating, enemies, etc. What is the use? We all are alone in the end, in the end all the joy dissappears or is forced, people only cause pain. Why do i deal with them. And then i get laura and maria bothering me all day about being antisocial and sad, what a riot, like either of them give a damn, all they do is make me feel shitty and worthless, and cause strife, and the worst part is even though they do nothing good for me i can't stop wanting to talk to them, and keep them as friends. And then i just can't stand even the 8thies at the moment, or soon-to-be-9thies, screw it, until you get to 9th your still and 8th. But even though they have done nothing, and are the only damn source of good besides Tay and Scott in real life i have, just talking to any single one of them is annoying and excruciating. God, I am falling to hell, and i don't want to be saved, i hope it stays till bowling tommorow...because honestly, i love this dream, not dealing with maria, beth, laura, taylor, will, or anyone else. Not making myself a hypocrite, or dealing with others being hypocrites, not having to deal with others influences, or with my jealousy or greed, it was great.

Heh. I got grounded from computer, and i have only sneaked on to type out one blog, just so i can remind myself of the beuaty of today with it...I think i will anger mom more so she also takes phone tommorow, it makes life simpler.

Heh. I really wish i didn't have so many things intertwining me with others. I would happily do the isolation shtick Alex is doing, cept i could handle it, since i don't give one damn about others. I have always been alone. Always will be. I wish i was the one moving, rather than molly, i want a way to easily break all ties with no chance of relapse, i want to have an excuse, i want to start anew. God, I just want out of this world. I want free of the self center hypocrisy of Good and evil, i want away from opinions and beliefs, i want away from pain, i want away from others.

I want away from myself.

So much can change in one year

Haha, its strange, i have had three relationships, i fell in love, i fell out, fell to like, fell to hell. Saw the world while being trapped in this town. Falling away from some of my closest friends, while with old ones i make amends. I bust some rhymes, i make good time. I fell for Yugioh and games of old, i played new games which had stories never told. I read some books, and a few i took a look. I went through hell and back, and met heaven and god. Came to know religion, and came to be purely shaken. I gained new friends, i gained new foes. I knew great woes, i knew great adventures. I learned of Shakespeare, oh my, not even a tenth done, oh how much can happen in a year.

eh.

It was fun, bowling, quit after first round to play cards. I feel as if i was pissing people off more than usual. Cause i am an idiotic douche at times. Oh. And me and clint= rape on cards. you know, i kinda envy taylor, he seems so damn natural in this world, everything he does, its fluid, smooth, and he just does it. My movements and acts, they are all stiff, i overthink it all. And if i just act on instinct i ruin stuff. I need to let instinct rule more. yesterday, whenever i slowed down and thought about it, i failed at serving. But i just let instinct take over, and did the motions with a fluid grace and served perfectly. But i always feel so uncomfortable with my body and everything, i guess that is why i like cards, i feel so at ease with card games, so natural. None of my actions are forced, the bluffs, mindgames, calculating, memorizing, counting, everything i can do and it all comes second nature and feels so simple and fluid. But everything else, all of htis world, it feels so stiff and rigid, and unnatural... Oh well....

Mostly good, a little crap.

God, its strange, today athletics and i where at an odd peace. I found volleyball and basketball entertaining.

Me and clint had an epic rat screw game, he ended up winning a stack that had 3 queens, 1 jack, 2 kings, 2 aces i believe. It was amazing xD

Oh. I met this awesome girl harmony. Harmony house (fucking awesome name xD) Seriously. Harmony house, awesome name. Maybe she is related to Gregory house...But she is hilarious, and totally matches perversion with perversion, sarcasm with sarcasm. It was hilarious. Best convo with her.

Me: Logan, can i have your shirt to nap on?
Logan: No.
Harmony: I'll let you have mine,
Me: *laughing* Ooooooh, sounds fun.

Though there where two instances of crap:

Maria: She has done it again. Exactly the same. She decides to invite bum-fucking-everyone to Sake, and happily forgets to ask me. And it was not just an assuming i was coming. Since she said "Me, laura, taylor, racheal, are going". Oh, and the kicker. She then invited clint. The guy she complained to me about him being an arrogant self centered douchebag and would not shut up about how she hated him. And she did it in front of me. But didn't fucking even invite me. Fuck her. Even after i debated on forgetting to invite her i invited her to my party, then i fucking invited her damn boyfriend to please her. Next time i am so forgetting her -_- Petty i am.

Others: Well, i got into another argument over Good-versus-evil. Defending guess who, hitler. Trying to argue that they where saying all these things, but never giving a reason as to why something was evil. And holding double standards. and all my arguments where failing and made n o sense. I mean scott said evil and good are what a majority believed, so the twin towers, holocaust, and such things where good. And the times when they gave no reason and said kiling was evil, plain and simple, they said that anything hitler thought could not be good, or anything else could not just be evil.

Honestly. Here is the scariest thing. Even though it does not scare me. I want another Hitler. I want someone who can do something so fearfully amazing, someone who can lead so well, turn a hellish country that is just a laughingstock into somethig amazing and powerful. He was smart, cunning, strategic, he knew how to convince people and lead. He was brilliant. He had one of the biggest, most recorded, and through genocides ever, and if we think of this as something other than a genocide, it was so amazing and brilliant. I doubt anyone could even do what he did today, much less as recorded and through, and this is the age of information. He was so amazing, i hate what he did, but he holds a great respect from me. Honestly, if we had a mind like his, the world would be better. And even if we had to take another genocide, the world needs it. I know it sounds awful. But we are vastly overpopulated, and our growth is uncontrolled and so is everything else about us, our waste, and everything. We could use a genocide. The sad, depressing, and scary truth.

But overall today was fun.

Wierd

Summer gym has not failed greatly. Played a bunch of cards. Been talking to clint and scott during it. Oddly i have been getting along. Though now i feel oddly sad and mehish. Oh well. Today was fun. But now i feel sorta bad. Why... I dunno.

Done for the love of god! Over!

I finally am done, did bio and math exams, were not too bad. Haha. Played egyptian rat screw, laura is a fucking insane bitch with it, my god, she almost took out my hand trying to slap half the time, dear god, i mean really, i still feel bits of pain there. And i still have not got my sleepiness fully gone from sunday xD Oh well. I will fix that tonight 8D

Bonfire is teh saturday, starts around 6 8D

Yay for school being out. But taryn is moving... sad.... And i got a couple hundred pennies from racheal 8D

Nothing much to report. Really.

Okay, just did exams,played egyption rat screw, 5 card studf, and texas hold em with luke after health. Talked to everyone during lunch. And then read during english exam,w ell after it.

I gave atlas shrugged back, so i will buy my own today.

I left off on page 826 after teh astericks

Oh. And okay. Bonfire is at my house again now. Because taylor can't even have it....wierd how me and scott joked "Just watch, i let taylor have it to appease everyone, and cause he has a pool, and it saves me work, then he won't even be able to." I am so a precognitive i tell you all. FEAR ME AND MAH UBER FUTURE SIGHT POWAZ!

And I like FFIV the after years. It is cool.

Why couldn't this day be on monday T_T It ruled too much to have 2 days of exams left that are 2 exams each day T_T

Okay, slept till like 10, came down and looked at stuff i missed yesterday. Ate, and went to school at 45 after. So i get tehre about ten mintues before lunch ends and talk to casey, mike, and josh. And sam and kelly. WEll, laura, taylor, maria, adn racheal all exempted 4th period or had study hall so they all went to the greene, so i did not miss people this morning. Then i go to parks world studies exam, which i felt a bit worried about, since i always have had social studies issues, too many dates and maps. Dates for some reason i have issues remembering unlike other numbers, orders i can't do (which of these five events happened first kinda things) and i fail at maps. Well, it ended up being easy, half of the map stuff was on the test in other questions, 12 questions you had to read articles and answer so it was simple. Either way i was second done and confident.

In like ten more minutes everyone else finished. So i watched a teaching game on euker (sp?), where sunny and i think emily, taught clint and sarah how to play. And me nad sam watched and learned too. It was fun. But the whole exam took barely an hour. And the last hour and a half was reading atlas shrugged and cards and goofing around. And i got a 95 on the exam, with my 5% bonus. So i got 90/100 how awesome is that~ Then after words josh took me home, took all of six minutes from the end of the exam to get here. It ruled. And i started Rp'ing again. So this is going well. And i wish this happened on monday so the end of school could have been this epic.

eh finished first exam yay

I has finished spanish. it was dull. went by like a blur. Today was dull, did nothing all day. Played DS mostly. Told taylor he can figure out the party, hell he has a pool, so eh, and i can try and bring some wood there maybe, i dunno. Who cares. I just wanna party xD

And it was raining. yay.

Eh, fuck it.

I am just gonna have taylor throw the damn party. I don't want to deal with getting shit over it. though this whole life is getting fucktarded, maria does something, it is fine, helpful, and a-okay. I do the same thing, or almost exactly the same, it is evil, cruel, hurtful, and vile. She makes snide comments and insults to taylor about his relationship nad hse has been helping him. I encourage, support, and tell some stuff, and i am being rude, and trying to sabotage it. Bull shit. Screw this i quit.

And must. Get. New. One. Piece. I bet black beard will use his little devil fruit powers to remove the poison, then kick magellans ass...

And i got light of destruction. Yay. Fun tugioh pack.

Uhm. Pie.

I am bored in school.

Spanish exam today.


FALCON PAUNCH

YESZ

SHOW ME YA MOVES!

Eh.

Today was pretty fun, talked to people. This one devin guy i know is on smae meds as me, we talked baout ADHD and it for a while xD Laura and maria got on my case about being a jerk to mum. Though me and family are jerk to each other. What she is always upset about is not how i act to her, but because i waste myself and don't do work. And pick on bro. Working on second one though. I had a whole sarcastic mini-essay on why they where wrong, but realized i need to stop fighting and defending myself on here when it is over. xD But if i am a jerk to her, well, taylor and scott have same exact issues with them, so they are jerks too xD

And apparently saying that i am gonna try to convince mom to give me facebook back, and barter with her for it, and ask for it, is saying i am gonna force her to let me have it o.O

And WC09 is being a douche. It has a avoid the gaurds level. THIS IS NOT FUCKING ZELDA! I BOUGHT THIS TO PLAY CARDS NOT RACE AND AVOID GAURDS GOD DAMNIT.

FFIV the after years is cool.

Uhm. I was really really energetic all day, but the meds wore off so now i am deathly tired....

so yeh. Thats all. Oh. I am gonna have a bonfire sometime hopefully one of the first two or three weekends after school ends, me and tay agreeded on this for all who knew he wanted to have one, we are gonna burn all school stuff we don't need, tell me if yall got specific days you can't come if you want to come nad such.

I. Had. Two. Amazing. Days.

Got. Dad. Got allure of darkness. Got a second solemn. Got FFIV the after years. Damn. Fucking. amazing