Hoo boy, so odd, so odd.

God, it is odd, i should by all rights feel a bit sad, and a week ago i would have moped for a while about all this, spent this whole time with leland complaining and being confused...yet i am happy. Really. Utterly. Completely happy. I guess it is the certainty, not guessing, or something, I honestly have no idea.

I guess I really am sick of mopin, hell, what is the point yah? Screw it, instead of complaining on the drive to where-ever-we-are-going i should enjoy it, yeah?

But sure, parts of this suck, and a lot of stuff is going on, but why not run and enjoy all I can. I mean, life is going great, and i have great friends.

And man, writing this to talk to myself, making sure i don't put these subtle hints at whatever-it-is to other people is hard. I need to do this without talking to others but to myself.

Leland fixed computer, which is running better <3

Iron Man 2. Hell yeah.

And Emily, thanks. You really have been the most influential person on me. I know it may not seem it, but i have really become a much better person thanks to you. And i really am trying to become even better. And thanks for being a great friend all the time, even though i've been a horrible person the last few months. You are amazing with that, and i really am sorry for all the shit i put you through. And i really thank you, you've saved me so many times, and helped me so much. Also, while i have broken my one promise to you, this promise i make you, and guarentee that i will not break this: I stil consider you my best friend, and i will always be there for you if you do need me. But through this all, thank you, so much, for everything. And I am sorry, for a lot of things, for myself, for who i am, for what I have done, all of it. And if this is goodbye with everything, well, it was a hella good run, but i will respect what you want. And i am glad you got over your public awkwardness/fear, and that you and taylor seem to be doing so great, I really am happy for you. I hope you are happy, and hope life treats ya well. Thank you. Once again, I truly, utterly, thank you.

Explanation to live a day or three

This blog, nah, my whole life. It is no longer mine. At all. And this blog damn straight needs to be mine. And i am sorry...But i cant do that with all you reading it. It becomes a bit like the sherlock holmes quote, "Never make a theory without the facts, inevitably you begin to force the facts to suit the theory rather than the other way around." I need to force the theory (others) to support the fact of this blog (Mineness). And when i let everyone read this no longer is it a message to me, a recollection and story to me, a symbol to me...it is for you.

So tomorrow it is going private for a while.

And today...well. One bit sucked. But dammit. I am not letting pain control me. You know, I finally am identifying myself, I am letting my "Maro" become more populous. And you know, if that is how life is, i gotta move on and respect everythin. I mean, I've hung out with friends, I am going to Mr. S for tourney saturday with my great friends, I got iron man 2, I am falling in love with the world again, reconnecting with my younger cousin...Hell I iwll be dammed if i let life get me down. I am finally doing better. Dammit i need to remember that one thing. Hope. Even if everything seems bad, never give up hope, dear god i never can.

And I need to remember the one thing i seem to be forgetting, the ideal i based so much off of and shrugged off when Tay reminded me of it...Carpe Diem. Seize the Day. This damn thing is too short to give up on. I will live through this.

But yeah, sorry on the fact this is going private. I need to reclaim this. It wont be too long.

I need to reclaim this. It is not mine, it needs to be mine again.

contradictions...

To give up and move on with this, or to keep hope? To forget what i said or keep that stupid promise? To keep trying or to quit? So many ideals and ideas and wants and promises...so many contradictions...

I really dont want to post. Or even come up with a blog title. I've been handwriting lots of this stuff. Maybe i will do catch up sometime...but for now i dont know why i feel no urge to do it. Hell. I still feel no urge to do anything.

But man...Dad getting knee surgery today. Wont be able to walk at all most of the week, or maybe longer. Hrm.

Really need to post weekend recap...

But feel bit eh. Meds wearing off. And loving how i can fuck up with a single assumption and how i can take one stupidity and idiocy so bad. God. I'm just a bundle of good cheer and do-what-i-sayness.

But yugioh stuff soon. And god a great storm <3

...why am i about to break...day has been great...

yet the stress of others...god i feel so sorry for them...a few people being bitchy in the end...small little things that shouldnt matter...I wanna cry...I really want to cry...

I just want someone to force their way past like old times...make me open up...

I just want my friends back...

I want to the past...

I want to stop messing up...feeling like i am a monster pisssing everyone i know off...

I want to not feel so hated...

I want past this shit...Why cant i feel like just a little past an hour ago...So clear...so serene...I want back there...

I want the past...

I want myself...

I want to stop hating myself...

I want the tears to stop...

I love you so

Oh night sky, so beautiful, calming, clearing...Though i felt almost upset when kasha and claire came out. It was partially wanted i wanted, but i liked the calm and quiet. But they where good companions, quiet onlookers at the beauty, then everyone else came and it became fights adn jokes...Which was fun...but i dunno. I liked the calm, the peace, the quiet. The time to clear and control my thoughts.

But why do i feel so horrible...

I dunno. Yeah. BAck to this. Except this time it is i just dunno what to post...I am failing at making this a good log of my life to remember with...God, that really is depressing...

At least a storm is coming...Though i kinda feel it is in more than just a physical sense on this...

I need to somehow always carry around Gurren Music

Seriously, i never can truly be upset with that. <3 Gurren Music.

Lets see, stuff seems to be goin to hell again. Oh well I guess, I am trying to hard, Lee is probably right. I will ease down, lessen everything, maybe time will work its magic...I hope it does.

I BEAT VINCENT ON A MATH QUIZ!!! Yeah, i know, he is like 3 years younger and all that...but damn beating that evil smart kid is a fun accomplishment. Got a few Jolly Ranchers too <3 and it worked out, i wanted grape, lee had grape, he wanted watermelon, i had watermelon.

Pierre is utterly amusing, and somehow maria's. Too bad woman, you lost him i claimed him >.> I love him so >.>

Uhm, FF14 being a bitch about being downloaded. Will figure that out xD

Listening to Libera me from hell.

Hrm. Really wierd on homecoming...I actually kinda want to go, look forward to it, and want to enjoy dressing up and all that. But i just...I have a feeling it is gonna really hurt, i will get awkward and feel stupid dressed up, etc., but i dont want that to happen...

Uhm, got cool little book with FF14.

Liked super hero day, too many super men, and batman, though i love batman. And not enough marvel. God blessed it is like there are only 2 heros. Loved kelly's Link, and adored the scrubs cast. Didnt see the captain america though D:

uhm. made a blog for storys and stuff when i decide to write my shitty stuff.

Hrm. I dunno. But for once i am kinda glad. I just wanna go with this, see how it fares.

And yes, part two of mah RP has opened <3 And tis all comin back to life <3

Well, on the good saw Zack at school for wacky wednesday and got pierre

is isn't was is...so much damn trouble...and no matter what i am not happy...I have everything i want but still am not happy and seems that is not what i want...Then soon it seems like everything everywhere is crashing again...Ugh..

What do i want? What the hell am i doing...

Heh. Fuck me. God damn. I am annoying even myself. Guess it must be even worse to everyone else. Maybe that is why everything goes to hell and back within a day so easily...Everyone just gets sick of me...Guess that makes sense...

I hate this...Heh, i feel cheated with this...and that is about all i can feel...

Screw this all...Maybe i really should quit trying on everything...But i wont...i want to somehow make everything right...just keep my friends...

Fuck me...guess it always comes back to that phrase. Fuck me. That is what i keep thinking to myself...

God dman i am pathetic...

I guess i will just escape to FF14 in my escapist fashion...let petty pride pretend i am fine even when i just voiced it...

But i guess i just hurt people nad myself in games...cant do or go anywhere without ruining someones fun...being an ass...i hate myself...

And it seems no one who wanted to play will get it soon/wants to play anymore...

Fuck me...

Oh well. Time to escape soon...

I'm sorry. Truly sorry. For everything i've done, everything i pathetically inevitably will do...For myself, for all this shit...for being unable to fully let go of the past...everything...I am sorry. I really am...

something feels off...like something is missing...yet everything is great and i am happy....

Amazing how little things can put stuff in perspective.

That small pair of flowers sitting in the desolate waste, beauty shining upon that radiant space, look hard enough and one can see, how much they mean to you and me. God. It is just like the end of Summer. "I've seen you at the park." "Really, I never saw you.." "Maybe you where just not looking hard enough." I've gotta stop being so damn narrow sighted. Gotta start remembering myself.

Then it is like the claw machine. Hell. I gotta stop being such a wimpy quitter for fear of issue. I mean hell, i cant give anna fossils i collect for her out of what? Fear? I dont even know why it is so hard. But all this pathetic random fears, issues, etc. I gotta stop letting them control me and stand up, swallow pride, swallow all of it, ask for help, get help, do something to solve it all. I never gave up on trying to win the claw, or a yugioh game, and i eventually succeded. I never let hope, fear, or anything of the sort control me, but instead let it fuel me. God i need to play life like a game.

but i have so much. I have all i need. Even if life is hard I have so many to support me, and so much worth it.

And i have to remember what simply the core drill i choose to always wear now symbolizes personally to me. A chance. At redemption, at hope succeding, at life, at happiness, at anything. It is my reminder to always fight. Yet why do i try to forget it.

Yeah. Some things still hurt. Some stuff seems wildly unfair and cheated, but who gives a damn. Okay, I do. and i honestly should. But i cant let the feelings control me. Oh i fail at a game? Learn from it. I fail with trying to tell someone to stop cheating, comee up with better way. Accidently go to far on a joke, apologize and learn. Fail at romance, just stand up and do better later. Fail a test, make sure to not let the sour mood make me fail more, and rather than think i cant do any, try harder...

Dammit i am getting past this. I will probably get depressed again soon. But nowadays the good moments are outweighing the bad and more common. And I will be damned if anyone takes that from me.

Also i firmly believe that the whole patron god thing that can apply to individuals, like based on their talents and skills, if it is real applys very much to me. With the Green Aliens from Toy Story. I won a Minion from a claw <3

No, not the UFO catcher at the regal though. Those things are fucking evil. How do japanese win from them?!?! The standard is 2 claws only?!?! Japanese are not human!

.....WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

Odin...Thor...Loki....The cards where great, and konami killed them along with all my hopes of running norse gods in a good card form! WHY *sad*

I cant stop messing up...

I just know so many are pissed at me...I am pathetic....

I am sorry...

Not that anything i say or do matters anymore...

least of all to you...

even less to me...

Okay. I am really pissed about some thing, seems like past keeps biting me. Seems like short end, like i was just a thing that everyone is, was, and will be ashamed of, pissed about things, yada yada. But that is complexs talking.


Today was...is...Great. xD Me and laura and Ria had a ton of fun once i got outta my funk. And over all everything was entertaining. And people are gonna yugioh with me. Though may just be me and paco and casey. But still.

And Yah....I lied on the privating. Another one of the common old things-said-in-rage. And to everyone, even if we are talking a lot nowadays...Just know i lied when i said i was giving up...I just cant. I still want to stay friends. I really dont care if oh we are not as close as once, we aren't dating, we are not bromancing, not in same state, etc, etc, etc. I rather have friendship than all that.

So yeah...Laura you are pretty with a moustache.

screw it

I quit. You guys obviously don't wanna be friends or associate with me, i am obviously nothing but a bother, a monster, some horrible thing only causing you pain, so fine. You all don't want me, i will leave you alone, you obviously want that...

I quit with writing. I am nothing but cliched and bad at it. I just am done trying to do something i cant and be something i am not...

I quit trying to distance myself from Tay, forgive and forget, move on with life, all that.

I quit letting this awkwardness prevent me from even just speaking to people like Anna, it is preventing me from getting more friends adn being better friends with people i know.

I quit. Plain and simple.


Also goin to Laura's and then the Greene today to break social norms and all that. Shall be fun. Then first official meeting of Team Sex Bob-Ombs. Hell yeah.

And also, this is going private within a week or two. For anyone who gives enough of a damn to want to read this pile of crap, comment your email.

Holy inferiority complex batman

Eh. Just in a day where i really cant feel good. Trying to not be too depressive or anything, not going well. But not doing things i will regret. Or trying to stay depressed. Trying to cheer up...

But this pain in back that causes me to cringe and gasp in pain every breathe is not helping...

And the fact that i am getting more certain that i just annoy half the people i text is not either...

And realizing that i hate every bit of my writing, am bad at it, and just starting to despise trying only to fail at it is a good bit annoying too...

And guess, what, the thing that could potentially be the highlight of my life for now? Starting a yugioh team with friends and leading it. Yeah. Let my patheticness wow you all. I have a yugioh team as the only decent things i have done in ages and possibly the only thing i really have...

And yeah, guys, it is totally Team Sex Bob-Ombs. 59/60 on it. Fuck yeah.

stop it

Stop stop stop stop. God damn. I don't want looks of pity. I don't want to be stared at with looks of depression, of sadness, guilt, sorrow, or whatever the hell is going on in your mind. I don't want any pity, if you are gonna just pity me, then don't. If you want to sympathize, you don't have to give me a look of sympathy that looks like you are about to off yourself. You can smile. And Honestly, even if i am being mopey, giving me that mopey look wont help. Give me a smile, talk to me, break past that little shell, get me to laugh, you can do it. You have. And do you always have to stare at me like...like nothing is there, like its a horrible thing, everything is gone? Give me a smile. God. I rather see happiness. And don't hide romance because "oh hey he is hurt and cynical", i dont need babied, need my ass kicked, and frankly, i rather see you smiling and happy than awkward and hiding.

And yeah. This is not a single person. This is in general. To everyone. And yes. I find directing all things i have issues with pertaining to lotsa of people towards a single fake person to be much easier.

Hrm. Really likin Anna, she is a fellow lover of Sweet Canadian Mullet sobe cap, was both our first. And she is rather fun.

And also...You stop it. Stop yourself. Why are you just dwelling? So you lost something, so you lost again, and hell again. If it happens then why dwell? You have had great times, and face it. They are gone. You need to let them be, stop just hoping so hard, you know it is a false hope, why do you keep doing it? The sad thing is that is not even why i am so disgusted with you...When did you become a quitter. So she doesn't like you, and so you seem to actually have developed a crush sometime recently, since when would that matter? You worked Laura for two freaking years to try and get her to reciprocate that crush. God blessed. You've actually become so impatient now. But god, if there is anything you have learned from games it should be simple to answer the cardinal rule, the biggest cliche: Dont. Give. Up. How often has everything changed with one moment, when you realized something, someone else failed to, or just got a bit of luck? You know it has happened a lot. Just stop quitting, try harder, sometimes the cards aren't in your favor, but you've gotten a lot of good because you tried past that until they where. Not one good friendship or romance lasted because you moved on quick when things seemed bad. Hell. Especially not romance, you had good luck there because instead of skipping onto next person when things seemed bad you tried to make it better and stuck through...

Stop dwelling. Get over yourself. Stop with the overactive hopes. Stop quitting. You can do this. God damn you can and will.

And guys...Thanks for dealin with me. Seriously. And for continuing to deal with me while i am like this...I wish you didn't have to though...I wish i was better already...

And Lee. It does mean quite a bit. And thank you a ton. You have become one of my best friends (Though with the amount of people i consider best friends i guess that aint to special anymore, or is it more special?), and you are one of the biggest helps i have had, especially in the last month. And whenever you need it i am here for you too.

sooooo

Lemme see. Wrote a good ol depressin blog. Basically the sum of what yesterdays blog-i-had-no-time-to-post was that i figured out the reason this is so damn hard to get past is this: It is not others causing it, or something i did to others, etc. It is all the faults, fears, complexs, and everything from my past that i had and never faced. I pushed them away. I ignored best i could. And now it is trying to consume me...But i will get past it...I will get over them. Lose it all. Or control it. I wont let myself disappear...

Please god. Please friends, please world, please deity's, fate, or anything else....Let me be strong enough to get past this.

Please oh please...

Urgh. I need to stop letting false vain hopes override reason...I knew exactly the answer. Why did i look to false data sets to interpret them as something they where not? I looked at rational rules and tried applying them to irrationals...

God. Why can't emotions make as much sense as numbers? God damn...

Found a picture of leland and shawn combined. It is amazing.

Uhm. Cursing my wierd awkwardness everywhere. In Sociology i did not even go to Laura and Maria for the group project, i felt awkward until Laura invited me over...Whihc made me feel a lot better...But god. I get my awkwardness in classes i barely know people. But there is someplace where i was with two of my best friends whom i have no reason to get like that with, so why was i feeling awkward and unwanted? Stupid confusing emotions.

Uhm. May actually go to homecoming. Since enough have badgered, and me adn shawn plan on having matching suits, fedora's and lightsabers xD

Me laura and Ria and girl whose name i dont know all workin on a project about breaking social norms cant end well. xD

Guess that is all.

I feel sick...

I feel literally physically sick. Bleh. That is a new one. I cant think now. Evil body.

What is this i dont even.

Just a lot is happening. Really not sure what to do. But...I am not gonna quit. I will keep trying. and i have friends to lean on. But...God damn, i am actually happy, not gonna let all this get to me. Hell. Half the confusion is good to be honest. I am finally getting somewhere. And finally being able to look on the good, and hell, forget the bad. Who knows. Just gotta keep looking forward. Not behind. Seize the Day, Carpe Diem, live life to the fullest.

will probably regret this, but oh well

you know, i am so sick and tired of this utter bull. god. whining about friendships fading, not seeing or talkin to people. all the people who said we'd stay best friends. that you'd all be there for me. and youd trust me.

what happened to that? it seems to be bs. all of this wanting friends back, yet trying to talk to you all is like pulling teeth. but maybe it is just cause it is me. but god damn, if i try to confide in most of you its obvious how you really dont care it seems. and now so few of you wll talk to me. and hell. me included, most none of us are going out of our way to try and talk to each other. hell. i am lucky if the most sympathy i get is an awww from someone. otherwise i just get generic "dun worry" "you are over reacting" etc. responses.

but god, what happened to when if i got truly broken like today you all would badger me to try and help, even if i didnt want it, and if all you could do was say you where there for me.

only lee continued to talk to me about it for more than 30 minutes. everyone else, this being a good 8 people, stopped around 30 min.

god why do i not do this anymore. why do none of us do this?

We all want to be close, and sure, a lot has changed, break ups, hook ups, some of see less of everyone than we want, some too many, etc. but what happened to when we instead tried for this stuff. most of us are upset by the distancing, bu god, if we all just tried a little harder...

if i tried a little harder....

aw hell, even if part of this is aimed at others we all know its me telling myself something.

Everyone...i am sorry. i've been pretty bad lately, and honestly will probably stay bad a bit more, sorry for my jealousy of idiotic things, pettyness, stupiity, grouchynss, bipolarness, etc., but just bear with me...and trust me, just if anything let me feel like i still have your trust...and let me lean on you all a bit longer...i will fnd myself, i know i will get better, i needa little time but i will...

i am trying...i swear to you i am, i really am....even if everything is changing, and i cant have everything how it was, i want us to be friends again. i just want the times where we all talked about everything, we could talk about our dates and romances with each other, our grief, sadness, joy, etc. no judging. no anything. no caring about our past relationships of any kind. where we aways had circle up, and most all of us where also talking in private. and we could talk about anything, and we just cared, even if we didnt know what it was, we listened just cause the other cared, and put aside our personal qualms...

or did that time even exist? a i just over draatizing small bits of good....

fuck it, either way. if i have to put on a mask, and even if i dont care i will listen, i will have myself go back to that time...somehow...or make it exist. make it real....I rather be trusted rather than have info spared to save my feelings. i rather know i can tell you guys anything even if you ex girlfriend, ex bromances, ex rivals, or ex deus ex machina, or anything. and have you guys feel the same with me....

but i am probably wanting impossible, over romantising it all...

I really shouldn't post this...

Oh well...

i am doing better...i will heal...

Deity, if you exist...Be there for me once. Just this damn once...

Dammit dammit dammit dammit...

What is wrong with me...I never thought i would lose this...I use to remember things clearly, how i felt, it was like when i was there...Now even five minutes ago in my mind feels surreal and like it didn't happen, like i am seeing a movie in my head...

And i cant do tests or quizzes...I start choking now...I forget everything...I forgot Hear and To Lose in spanish...I forgot words i used ten minutes before...i could barely get 26/50 of words i have been using for fun the last few years...

And even now spanish class seems to be weeks ago...

I now have to study...and even then it is not helping... "To hope for" I read that and went over it 20 times...I forgot it...in 1 minute between setting paper on ground and seeing it...

Hell, i took the practice qui online 5 times and missed questions i had already gotten correctly...

And after i managed 2-3 90%'s i still only got a 75 in parks...

Man...I never thought my memory and test taking would fail me...

I guess it is true, nothing is forever...

but i am so screwed...failing now...

I feel so useless now...So pathetic...so unneeded....so weak...

I just want....what do i want, last year? Old friendships? the past? I don't know...

You know...Maybe i do...I want me back....I want to be myself...Whoever that is...

"Kick her in the balls!"

YEah, pilgrim quote. Deal with it.

Hrm. I dunno if it is meds or not, but i have been going from depressed to happy to pissed, etc. much more easily.

And gah, like everyone is going to homecoming...I kinda want to go...but i dont. It was pretty bad...and i know my complexs and other such stuff is going to easily put me over the edge...But i do like the outfit i had before, twas snazzy, and i did enjoy just takin pictures...

Gah. Indecision sucks.

ANd you know...I really miss the past. But i gotta stop moping...God emotions listen to reason. Grasp for a new future, or catch whatever of the past still exists.

Comic books are actually quite inspiring. Better than manga in quite a few ways.

Hrm. Sixth period is entertaining, Mason and Amanda are hilarious.

7th was fun.

Uhm. I gave Leland Fossils, who gave to Anna, and he made her hug me, she was quite awkard about it, kinda amusing...

Uhm. My moaning and ranting aside nothing else to add...

Hrm.

"This is the vegan police!"

STill lesbianing Scott Pilgrim.

Hrm. Really just...out of it recently. A good bit is meds i can tell. But just out of it a lot. Confused and bored and just weary. But who knows. I just keep dwelling on how...I don't know anything. How I have no idea what i want, how i don't know where i am going, no dreams, no ambitions, no real talents, self confidence, nothing...I just...I don't know. and i hate that. I really do.

But eh, to hell with sob stories. I am doin pretty damn good. Gettin closer to peeps and all that. Getting a good group of fellow Duelists, enjoyin comics, etc. Overall not much to complain about...

"So presumably you saw some guys junk, and for that i apologize."

God, loved scott pilgrim so damn much. Saw it twice. Spent 24 hours with Shawn. Played lotsa yugioh. Good weekend.

Got avengers comics. Quite fun.

Hrm. Feelin out of it today...Not trying to communicate. But...well no one really responds back much...only Kasha. Every single other person barely responds anymore...Gah. Trying to hold onto past friendships...but they all seem to be fading...

I dunno what i am doing...I really dont...

More on...wait for it, wait for it, yup, Yugioh.

God, i love this game. It is fun no matter the play level. And something i know well. And honestly, i have mnade some of the best friends through the game. It has so many memories. And it has helped me get past my inability to try and hang with people outside school besides in parties and such. God. If i didn't have this game i dont know what would happen...

Woah, good day 0.o

Okay, lets try to recap. Cant forget.

Lets see, Math was fun. Though this new girl (Or newly met, not sure) girl Anna stole Lee when i wanted him as a partner. But we all where talking, and i realized she is also in my AP lit, she is cool so far. Definitely wanna know her better. I mean, i said "Gah, chase, what is the word?" And she yelled "The bird!" which won me over instantly. And both Laura and Lee like her (maybe others i know too, not ignoring anyone else who does, ive only seen those two talk to her xD) so she cant be too bad.

Then Mr Schultz saw my thundercat shirt, told me it was awesome, and proceeded to talk about it for a good 5-10 minutes. Epic teacher.

Then mentor was fire drill and lit club meeting. It looks good. Though really pissed about some of the people who are there...

Not gonna name any names.

FUCKING ZACK JORDAN

Nope. Not naming any at all. At. All.

Oh, something I forgot. I realized with Anna that for some reason recently with people i have been...trying harder? Trying to reach out more? I am less sullen and spiteful to people i dont know. And those i am developing an interest in (Not romantically) I've started actually introducing myself and offering my hand. And with me...well that is huge. I never really introduce or learn names, let alone try to (I get all awkward and shy...). Hell, sometimes i have trouble even after ages of talking to people. so i dunno, just realizing i have been doing that, kinda interesting to me.

Lunch was me obsessing with an infernal program. Think i got it though.

Socio we just talked like whole time xD

Spanish was Amanda and Mason making fun of Jeff Maler over half the class, it was hilarious.

7th was messing with Miguel, and readin beowulf amongst other stuff. Not too bad.

Uhm, benny and kasha feelin sick D:

Uhm. New format <3

Oh. Yeah, we got Uverse and such here, so internet was down, hence no blog yesterday. I had pen and papered one. But that was just a sulky thing. Too lazy to post.

Hrm. Came up with a cool idea for little Sosun stories.

And yeah. That is all...

Oh. Lee, if you read, remember master ball D:< Also we need to hang out like saturday or sunday or friday.