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Blog...heh...heh...nah

this is a blog

there, happy Em?

you know i figured it out.

Its not sluts and whores i hate and annoy me, since i know some cool ones. I just fuckign hate Sophie and Maria that sit behind me. They are annoying bitches. And retard fucks. What really saddens me is that Maria and Nick are siblings...How is he so cool and she so annoying?

Yeh. Only thing i really got...

Day of fail and random poem (guess who about)

Les see, been angering people, saying wrong thing, etc. Makin them upset. Annoying myself yada. Its a mean cycle (oh dear lord been listening to too much paramore). Been feeling shitty and crappy. So i went home. Guess what. Power was out. -_-. Bleck. Day been shitty.

And you know, i snapped mentally earlier. I grew sick of what ifs. I knew full well i loved my position on life and what not. And didn't care about what ifs, everything in past is done. I am just working for future.

My mind apparently got the message...except it read it as "What if dresdenn style!" time.

Random poem, written from being bored in a fricken power outage D:<:

*WILL COME FREAKING LATER WHEN MOLLY IS NOT MESSING EVERYTHING I TYPE UP WITH FACEBOOK D:<*

Its amazing how the little things affect you so damn much...

So i was just sitting here dealin with nothing really. And i have a package...from Kelsey. She sent me a late b-day gift, a Gundam Model, a small dollar machine pokemon toy (We need these here), and some little japanese food shaped erasers...And i am almost in tears. Its just...something amazing. That she actually sent this. That she did that, and it reminds me of years ago, so many years ago, where she sent me a bunch of japanese pokemon cards (Which i still have and cherish, they are some of my most prized possesions), and its just...amazing. I don't know why. But man, i really love Kelsey, god, i really can't wait for her to come this summer. I really really can't wait...

WOOT

PLANTS ARE TIER FUCKING ONE! FOR ONCE! HELL YEH BITCHES!

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This week is a blur.

I've just been out of it, everything is going by so fast with so little meaning or anything. Just haven't been diggin it. Leeland invited me to some pool gathering that went to hell, but its cool he did. Gotta like that guy. And been playin monopoly and other stuff... and i've been gettin really annoyed, irratable, uncaring, etc as of late. Odd.

And my mind and what ifs are really getting annoying. What if i got this game, dated that guy, that girl, never met this person, did this thing, etc. Shut up mind. Stop worrying about what could have been.

Now if only my mind would listen. Bleck.

new l4d2~

Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay~

Hrm

So rented uncharted 2 since alex wanted to play me/seems fun. Will entertain myself with it for a few days, my FF break. Urhm. Nothin important...yah...

Well, DLC coming

for bio 2 and l4d2. Now i just need my fricken bio 2 back D:<

food

Had marions and friendlys today. FTW

Not the greatest of days.

"But as tom learned rarely does reality coincide with expectations"

That line has been playing through my head...all everytime. But yeh, cold, tiredness, painful feet, that line being true to events, and lack of food/eating shitty food has been gettin to me.

And paco is getting fucking annoying with girls. He flirts with emily and jess a lot, and not just small things, its big as lack of respect almost sexual harrasment flirting some of the times. Many times its playing, but he still flirts a crap load and is serious flirting, nad does it right in front of me.

And i was tired but not depressed...until sitting in the park i came back after getting pizza and sat on a log in the bit of forest...I felt disgusted. The forest park was beautiful, one of the most gorgeous and great things i ever saw, it was perfect....And it was an arm, and the rest of the body was decapitated and gone. As i looked at the park where that forest had been, i hated it, a lot. The forest part...i never wanted to leave it. When ben dragged me out...i felt glad that he and emily cared enough...but i wanted to harm him and go back to my paradise, not wanting to abandon that sacred arm.

But something i am really glad of...me and laura seem to really be mending. Maybe that friendship is not so long gone. I would not mind that, cause i really do love her, she is one hella friend. Even if we failed with romance, she is still one of the best friends i have had. Plus without her who would i torture miguel with?

I hate fucking morons

seriously. If this was not too long, and i wouldn't get in trouble for it, i would post this on facebook:

Here. Every christian, straight, white, *add in the rest of the majorities* Who think its unfair when any minority gets something you haven't got, just remember this. Whites have better situation and almost no intolerance, most every other race faces lots of intolerance, and worse everything. And religion wise, christianity is the only religion with almost every major event in it recognized as a national holiday. And none of the majorities have gone through hell like the minorities. So here is this. If you want even everything, then Whites, go get oppressed and be slaves a while in this country of "Freedom" and get as much racism and crap as minorities have. Striaghts, go get as horrible time as LGBT have had. Christians, give up all your national holidays, and be persecuted and treated unfairly all the time. God damn. People have skewed thoughts of fairness and are too damn egotistical. If a minority gets something you don't guess what, there is a reason, the majority gets everything they don't.


god blessed. People need to shut the fuck up at times.

Shitty day is shitty.

Bertke was being a retarded bitch. Schmidt too. Had to deal with spanish and Anthony was being fucktarded as hell and not just doing it, seriously, even i at least get to it when it is the day it is due. Then had to present, ugh, i hate presenting. And i have been goin through personal hell...just not sure of anything, hatin self, yada yada. And most all this day has sucked. And it looks like festival may be cancelled today unless clouds stop being bipolar, bah. Man. Hell, you like to come to everyone at once.

lalalala

So tommorow is mock accident, wonder if irony will have a real accident happen like last year.

Tired. Hungry. Feelin crappy.

Gotta figure out what to do with bro for festival.

YAwn. Uhm. Kasha got phone, been textin her all day.

Boredom.

dear lord...

I suddenly got really sickly, tired, and hungry, and feel crappy. bleck.

yay bloomin cherry blossom tree

I love the one boomin in my yard. Its cool.

Uhm. Listening to all slut stories irks me. I mean, is my group of friends the only people not fucking? I am fine with the like, 10 percent that are doin it with people they like and will be with for ages, or hell even have known ages. But The people goin out all the time nad doin whoever they can irk me. And just hearin about it is annoying as fuck. And totally none of this is just the fact i probably won't get laid for ages. Totally not.

Uhm. Really likin Shadow on plant thread, epic player, cool dude who loves TTGL, and emily loves him for yelling "Giga drill breaker!" when he attacks with Gurren Lagann in YGO form.

Uhm. Dunno. STOP EXPECTING SOMETHING WITH MATERIAL AND GOOD STUFF IN IT. I FAIL AT THIS BLOG

uhhhh

Lets see. Alex is cheating on me, she told emily, emily told me how she said that alex should not tell my girlfriend that, and i pointed out that em is cheating on me with alex too, which was amusing.

Saw dragon movie nad what not, did not suck, was enjoyable, girls had near sexual obsession with it.

Converting yugioh peeps to Gurren lagann loving of a card that looks like it. Emily loves shadow because he says "giga drill breaker!" when attacking. Which i also plan to do. I need a gurren lagann figure to substitute for Drill warrior...

And, uhm, nothin really. Yeh. So......... I am goin bakc to figuring out what the hell i will play this format in yugioh...

The more i think, the more i know that i know so little.

Though through the bit i know one fact i realize, and continue to realize is how much the little things mean. I really nowadays try to make sure to do the small things, with friends and everyone, be it hugs, tellin people i care, or the works. The little things damn well mean the most. Though tryin to do them is a bit hard, specially since i am more big picture kinda guy.

But heh, today kinda sucked, but end of day made it worth. Made my week, heh. Little things are the most.

Finished Dresden, it was infuriating and amazing and so risky series wise, butcher will have his work cut out for him in hte next few.

Read great gatsby too, short read. Good, not sure why it is so amazing.

thats all really...

BAH

DRESDEN WAS SO EPIC NAD DEPRESSING D: WHY IS ALL MY FAVORITE SERIES DOING THIS

FUCK YOURSELF LIFE

I WANT MY GOD DAMN BOOK

I hate life.

New dresden not her. Bah. I don't wanna wait D: GET HERE SOON STUPID POSTAL SERVICE THING WITH MY BOOK D:<

Ugh, why act on autopilot body.

Ugh. Why can i not stop. I know those friendships, the relationships, everything, i know they are gone and done. I know its pointless to try and recover them, yet when i talk to them i make a fool of myself, try to act as if nothin is wrong, try to make jokes and fix it, and i feel like a crowbegotten fool. The past is done, i give up on it, but when they, any of them, come around i grope at the old past, i hope for the lie i know is one, why, why can i not severe the bonds. God damnit i use to be able to forget and give up things so perfectly. Ugh, i really have let myself become weak, that this gets to me so bad, that it can happen. But it won't destroy me, i will break it, i will grow from it.

uhm

blog back. Uhm, DRASDEN TOMMROW