Nothing. At all really.

LEts see, ben was pure win, i ttoally got all my math done. Nothing else today. Though i may have to switch lunches which would suck. But most likely not. Okay, knowing my luck probably. Eh. Whitney and everyone is at second...and i think i can use IEP to keep in first 8D Now no more speeky of it for fear of jinx

Today uneventful. Oh though i failed once.

Okay, rather uneventful. The usual. The going to places, liking teachers, etc. nothing too eventful. Still need to work on eating mroe >.> I am pretty sure if i skip meds one day, then get the taste of bosco sticks back in my system i will get addicted again. And i keep forgetting about pumpkin pie. But i ish getting donatos soon.

Okay, in math she gave us a copied sheet of her handwritten chapter 1 course. Well, i thought her / was a 1 since they looked alike. So i did page 51. The chapter review. Rather than the easy practive problems. While freaking out all of study hall while doing it. Yeh, thankfully she just laughed it off and gave me till monday.

And this whole actually doing work sucks. Too much to take home -_-

Emily getting owned.

Colberoth Norris (9:39:51 PM): And may dissappear, thunda around
"emilt" (9:39:57 PM): crap
"emilt" (9:39:57 PM): crap
"emilt" (9:40:01 PM): need to type paragraph
"emilt" (9:40:05 PM): before lightning
Colberoth Norris (9:40:09 PM): HOLY FUCK
ArgyrisArcher (9:40:12 PM): Save your work.
Colberoth Norris (9:40:15 PM): Dear god.
Colberoth Norris (9:40:19 PM): That was loud and close
"emilt" (9:40:30 PM): not gonna talk nao.
Colberoth Norris (9:40:34 PM): okay
starlightgal93 (9:40:51 PM): xDD
Colberoth Norris (9:40:52 PM): And man, i feel sorry for jade T_T
Colberoth Norris (9:41:08 PM): Brb, i go comfort scared doggy quickly
Colberoth Norris (9:41:55 PM): poor girl
starlightgal93 (9:42:22 PM): xDDD
"emilt" (9:42:30 PM): holy crap.
"emilt" (9:42:34 PM): i just... -facepalm-
starlightgal93 (9:42:37 PM): Emilt speaks!
"emilt" (9:42:44 PM): there is a need for this.
"emilt" (9:42:52 PM): i just subconciously quoted gurren.
"emilt" (9:42:54 PM): dear god.
"emilt" (9:42:55 PM): -stabs self-
starlightgal93 (9:43:01 PM): DIE 8D
Colberoth Norris (9:43:16 PM): Go beyond the impossible and kick reason to the curb?
Colberoth Norris (9:43:26 PM): And muhahaha.
Colberoth Norris (9:43:27 PM): I win.
"emilt" (9:43:37 PM): yes. -.-
"emilt" (9:43:50 PM): it was just "beyond the impossible" but yeh.
Colberoth Norris (9:43:53 PM): ....*will not let you live this down*
"emilt" (9:43:59 PM): TT-TT
Colberoth Norris (9:45:15 PM): xDDD
Colberoth Norris (9:45:18 PM): So what was this in?
"emilt" (9:45:35 PM): my paragraph...
"emilt" (9:45:38 PM): -corner-
starlightgal93 (9:45:43 PM): For some reason my compy won't recognize my iPod....I wanted to wake up to Riku's theme ;A;
starlightgal93 (9:45:53 PM): ''orz
Colberoth Norris (9:46:20 PM): See, just watcj, and soon you will love
Colberoth Norris (9:46:22 PM): it
Colberoth Norris (9:47:33 PM): You know. That would be a perfect MLIA
Colberoth Norris (9:48:10 PM): "I have been using a line from a show i watch over and over. It has been pissing off my girlfriend. She just subconsiously quoted it in her homework. I win."

Phils admittance of being a pedo

"emilt" (7:13:53 PM): -wonders who asked alex out-
Colberoth Norris (7:14:15 PM): http://cgi.ebay.com/Gurren-Lagann-Boota-Plush-NEW_W0QQitemZ270436442748QQcmdZViewItemQQptZLH_DefaultDomain_0?hash=item3ef744a27c&_trksid=p3286.m20.l1116
Colberoth Norris (7:14:21 PM): Do want
ArgyrisArcher (7:14:40 PM): Wut?
"emilt" (7:14:42 PM): o3o
starlightgal93 (7:14:55 PM): *facepalm* I'm blogging about it I'm blogging about it!
"emilt" (7:15:01 PM): 8D
Colberoth Norris (7:15:10 PM): Phil the small people be all steppin up in you grillz
ArgyrisArcher (7:15:18 PM): >_>
starlightgal93 (7:15:23 PM): *facepalm* He's taller than Phil I'm sure
"emilt" (7:15:24 PM): wat?
ArgyrisArcher (7:15:35 PM): *as tall as Alex*
"emilt" (7:15:38 PM): -blinks-
starlightgal93 (7:15:42 PM): Seriously *facepalm* he is
"emilt" (7:15:46 PM): w/e. still taller than me. xD
starlightgal93 (7:15:58 PM): I will soon be taller! *dramatic pose*
Colberoth Norris (7:16:20 PM): *taller than you all*
ArgyrisArcher (7:16:20 PM): And Brandon, keep in mind that Alex and I have technically already gone on a date.
starlightgal93 (7:16:36 PM): Wtf Phil!
starlightgal93 (7:16:43 PM): Just according to your MOTHER
starlightgal93 (7:16:45 PM): AND FAMILY
Colberoth Norris (7:16:45 PM): ...you realize technically it is pedophilism that you said that >.>
starlightgal93 (7:16:47 PM): AND FRIENDS
"emilt" (7:16:48 PM): it's-- LOL
starlightgal93 (7:16:52 PM): AND WHOEVER THE FUCK YOU TALKED TO
ArgyrisArcher (7:17:13 PM): We don't accept it, but by definition, that was a date. >_>
"emilt" (7:17:21 PM): not really...
starlightgal93 (7:17:22 PM): With Lindsay, Fool!
"emilt" (7:17:35 PM): you are friends. you went to the zoo. .-.
starlightgal93 (7:17:39 PM): ^ that
"emilt" (7:17:47 PM): i dont like all this gender blah blah
Colberoth Norris (7:18:28 PM): IT was not a date. Dates involve romantic interests etc
Colberoth Norris (7:18:33 PM): it was two friends
starlightgal93 (7:18:34 PM): ^ that
Colberoth Norris (7:18:35 PM): Hanging out
Colberoth Norris (7:18:50 PM): if i hang out with ben or whitney or someone i am not on a date with them
starlightgal93 (7:18:58 PM): YOAI
starlightgal93 (7:18:59 PM): *hids*
ArgyrisArcher (7:19:01 PM): Fine, fine
Colberoth Norris (7:19:01 PM): and if someone else like lindsey is there it is less of a date
starlightgal93 (7:19:03 PM): *hides*
Colberoth Norris (7:19:15 PM): soooooooooo. You confirmed yourself as a pedo
"emilt" (7:19:19 PM): just because phil wants it to be...
starlightgal93 (7:19:20 PM): yep
starlightgal93 (7:19:21 PM): 8D
Colberoth Norris (7:19:25 PM): Way to dig a ditch phil
ArgyrisArcher (7:19:27 PM): >_>
"emilt" (7:19:31 PM): indeed.
Colberoth Norris (7:19:43 PM): *goes to put this in a blog post*
starlightgal93 (7:19:50 PM): xD
"emilt" (7:20:04 PM): xD
ArgyrisArcher (7:20:18 PM): At this point, I don't care about being called a pedo anymore.
starlightgal93 (7:20:26 PM): Orly???
Colberoth Norris (7:20:28 PM): Yes, but this convo is epic win xD
starlightgal93 (7:20:32 PM): ^ that
ArgyrisArcher (7:20:35 PM): Yarly

Okay, Bi-polar be thy name.

Okay, in class all day i was feeling shitty and slightly distracted. Though the distraction caused me to focus on doing work. But i felt like i was angering everyone, as if i was doing only bad, and as if i was putting burdens on everyone, even though i knew i was overestimating it all. And that i was mostly wrong. I felt as if everyone was going to leave me, and as if all friendships were going away. I felt as if i was sabotaging everything like i usually do. As if i had wrecked all relationships, with emily, laura, taylor, whit, everyone. I felt paranoid and confused. It was so damn odd, specially since right after i walked out of 7th period i felt a bit better. And i started to feel fine, nothing but lingering thoughts and such.

Overall though, today was dull, but a bit entertaining here and there. Harley is in my 7th it seems, Davidson that is, which is cool, me nad him are talking again, rekindling that old friendship maybe?

And hey, luckily i was wrong, it seems me and laura are getting along again. Sure not like super duper uber great but pretty good.

Hmm. What else. Lets see. Talking to scott more. Which is cool.

I got 3 hours of sleep, and then barely ate past 2 days, and took meds...that is probably why i was so out of it today.

I am feeling good about life. Have amazing girlfriend and friends, and teachers all seem pretty damn good.

I am actually doing work, it is kinda scary...add another to apocolypse counter

Dissidia needs to be worked on mroe.

Making Atlas shrugged a huge priority. Determined to finsih it. In the middle of the 60 something page speech...which is oddly one of the fastest parts...Ayn Rand is quite the author.

Uhm. I'll Go crazy if i don't go crazy tonight has been getting stuck in head. Which is not too bad actually >.>

Bringing apples to apples to school again like back a few years ago. This should be good. THE RETURN OF THE CABBAGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hrm. Uhm. Anything else. Nope. Not that i can think of. Oh, when i figure out peoples lockers nad such, i am gonna make a few vids for taryn of everyone, god, i miss her and Emily T_T They where so much fun T_T

Yup. That be it. I think. Well. some random stuff, but that is all that is important pretty much. Well, actually it is all pointless and random, but yeh >.> All i really want to write.

Whatthe hell. MAn, odd what i realize when napping.

I realized for some reasons that damn old fear is back. Fear of getting hurt. Getting close, etc is back. With most everyone. I have been trying to...tone it down, not be as close to everyone recently. Odd.

I guess i am feeling torn mostly over who I am. Am i really the weak inferior person i always feel like when depressed? Or am i truly the strong, unmovable, unharmable person i try to be. Most likely the former. But still i find myself refusing to care. If it hurts me, or makes me uncomfortable, laugh it off and ignore. I don't let myself cry in others if i would feel like it, if i would feel sick or harmed i usually try to act as if it was nothing. I try to be like someone who has no weakness, i talk big, and act big, and try to be superman. When i am just a man. How damn odd.

*yawns* Hmm. But i am not sad or angry or anything really. This is an odd musing after waking up....I wanna go perma-nap.

Back to the attemped regular blog.

Well first day of school. Fun fun. God, i love being back on meds. I am alert, focused, hyper, controlled, it is euphoric and amazing. God i love it.

See everyone around the halls, in Scotts class like 3 times (which rules) have one with Maria, a few with sam, Alexis too, uhm, who else, rachel last period. Oh and greg in 2, which is cool. Chase parks also. And clint. Overall it is pretty good. And a few good teachers.

Did a little "make-a-dinner-party" thing in honors english. Fun as hell. Invite 12 people and seat them in a circle table. Here is how mine is

Me-jim butcher-Orson scott card- Hitler (he would be interesting to talk to. Definitly ban violence adn killing >.>)- Billy the kid (chosen only cause that would be interesting to have there) -Einstein (one of my favorite sceintists, same applys to next three) - stephen hawkings-Gregor mendel- Darwin (Woot Darwin, Power to evolution!)-Ayn Rand (great writer and philosopher and such...and ideas inspired bioshock >.>) - Anne frank (deep, interesting, nd when i read diary i related to a lot. She would be interesting. Put on oppisite side of hitler for safety >.>)- Stephanie meyers (solely to make fun of)- Anne rice (too look down on Meyers, she also is last and right by me.)

Uhm,uhm. Oh, got english dissidia. Lots o changes. Tidus seems like he wont play as well. But i am loving Terra, so i may switch terra as my second main. Zidane has been weakened, but i am finding he can still work, and he just takes a lot mroe skill now. Will have to practice. Same with terra, since i never was lol-god with her.

Hrm, almost everyone is in first lunch. This will end badly or great. Probbaly both.

Barely saw miguel, Em, and Laura. Le sigh. Well most our in first lunch, so i will see them tomorrow. Though it seems more and more likely that this friendship is gone. And that no matter what happens it won't recover. Le sigh, maybe it will recover like clint and scott, where it just aint as big as before. Hopefully.

Hrm. Bored. Well, the blog should be back, i guess. So yall shuddup about bloggin more.

Oh yay. Fail-day, extrodinere.

Lets see. Maria is doing another good ol invite tons of people but me to sake run. And honestly, i wouldn't care, cept she specifically told my mom it was cause me and clint don't get along. Lol. That is why he still enjoys sleeping over here. And why he says he hates all the others like laura,ria, tay, and everyone else -_-Good to know i don't get along with him, since that is something i should know. -_-

Then went to festival, i was feeling tired and out of it. Saw laura, yay nothing but pure awkwardness with her. Looks like what ever spark of friendship we had may be gone...Sadly...

Taylor is now with lucas. Which irks me. He and rachel were really good. Pisses me off that she ended it -apparently- due to his clingyness -_- Honestly people getting on him about clingy is such bull shit. He has barely been clingy anymore, its now just a scapegoat for "there is no reason" dumpings now. Or a way for those who get together with him, even if they are bad with relationships and always want out. Honestly. It is pissing me off so much that what happens to him affects me more than what happens to me.

And then i threw up on two pathetic rides.... I don't even know why....maybe since i didnt eat a lot today.

And i barely had time there.

And my deck has been losing...

I have been feeling lust take so much control when i don't want it there...

I need to finish work or get grounded...

It all sucks...yet i don't feel to bad...i just am not feeling. Man i am out of it...I need to sleep.

Sleep=reset

me <3 sleep

OH my god.

Okay, hey, God, you know, who doesn't exist except in the minds of those who, well, believe. irony is your forte. And you prove it again. Be a douche to my friends. Mess with their hearts...and now. Now you toy with mine.

You gave me my love D grayman. And you gave me a confusing but awesome chapter...but you announce an almost 3 month wait for another chapter, after starting such an amazing new one?!?! DO YOU HATE US OR WHAT!?!?! There is no kind deity.

but my god you hold my respect non-existent God. You really do.

Oh, and i will write more of my story tommorow. Post it here. Maybe. Unless i don't. Surprise!

Lalala. Dear god people. Did you not see the "don't respond, this is anger"

Seriously, fo sho xD I even said never take angry/depressive blogs seriously, they are ranting and venting and yada yada.

In other news, i got new phone, moms old one, it irks me... I kinda want to switch back to crappier one. Dads old one, but if i dare sugggest that, i die. Don't wanna risk it. lalalala. Bored. Sad i missed meteor shower...didn't realize it was also visible here...though in retrospect where i am i would not have seen it. Oh wellz. I go talk to killer noa. He be on.

Go beyond the impossible, and kick reason to the curb...

Ya know, i love how that quote fits Ayn Rand so well. Ya know, i am gonna go beyond the impossible and pathetic of this world. I am sick of greed, of want, of desire, lust, anything that is not inherently bad getting classified as bad. I am sick of saying i am sorry, or hearing it over things that don't need it. Ya know. In all damn honesty i am sick of people being viewed as horrible and selfish because they are "greedy" and sick of this world being so retarded. We live in such an amazing place, but we are so trapped by the horribleness of words, and losing our freedom when we should be free. I am sick of being in an economy in which greed and competition defines it, yet trying to be greedy is selfish and evil. I love seeing people complain about obama being a socialist, yet all the ways this country acts, how it seems all point to half the ideals of socialism. I am so sick of whenever me or anyone says "seems like" "acts" or anything of the sort it means "it is" "must be", when last i checked "seems old," "seems stupid," "seems dull," means "it appears to be but might not be".

I am sick of myself, my friends, hell, everyone getting guilty, depressed, and worried over such shit and pointless things. I am tried of romance having to be such a damn central part of people, and so defining. I'm tired of people acting as if lust is not 75% of romance and as if the whole damn point of romance, the thing deepo within our genetics, is procreation.

I am sick of me, and others feeling guilty when there is no damn reason to be. I am sick of feeling greedy when it is natural. I am sick of ranting and people taking these things so damn seriously.

I am so sick of morals impeding on everything. I am so sick of the amazing being thrown out the window because of "evil" acts. Guess the fuck what, i will use my favorite and common example of hitler. He was such a brilliant fucking man, but any joke of him, any reference is overshadowed by the "evil" he did. Well. Guess what, all the hate on hitler, yet no one fucking mentions Stalin, when he did worse. 20 mill vs 6 mill? I say stalin was more "evil" and hitler was way more amazing. Honestly. Hitler is one of the most respectable people ever if you look beyond petty morals.

I am sick of the hypocrisy that humans care about life. It is all bullshit. We obviously don't care too much about our own lives. and the illusion is dissolved by the fact we don't think twice to kill a harmless fly, or random insect. Especially little "creepy crawlies" which do nothing but disturb us. Not harm us. Honestly. Everything dies. Life in itself ends up being quite pointless. Within 100-200 years almost all life will be gone. Deal with it. Stop treating it like something precious, or at least stop trying to make me treat it that way.

I am sick of me caring so damn much about talking to all my friends, but now not tlaking unless they start it, unless i need to ask something. And then slowly just leaving the talk. I am sick of people getting ignored in talks, even if i ignore them, and they ignore me. I am sick of the bull shit from aim. And the drama of life.

Ya know what. Here is the deal. I want none of you to feel so damn depressed, and if your angry, fucking show it. Anger is good god damnit. And don't fucking bother us with contemplating suicide, or wondering what would happen if we dissappeared. And don't you dare get fucking depressed or hateful because of this god damn mother fucking post. Cause guess what, you could easily say this is to emily, alex, or who knows else, telling them to man up. You could say indirectly this is me chatising emily or alex, or even bren and shini, and everyone else. Well. Guess what. This can be taken as something you should all fucking listen to, because i have shown i know my fucking stuff, but this is for someone else. This is for me. This is so i can stop with all this shit. All this crap i know i do and hate. I need to grow up.

The funniest part, i am not angry really. Not sad. I am fine while typing this. Minorly irked. But in the end. I am in the best time of my life. And still going good. And now, well, i think i need to extend all this, work on that stuff i never care for, my dietary habits, my body, maybe excersize, and school work. Ya know. I bet i can do it. Hell. I know i could. Question is will i.

And don't even bother commenting on this. I don't want to hear it. None of this will matter. We will still do everything the same. Hell, ya wanna show you agree on any damn part of this do it. And don't get on my case about the mean stuff here. Or anything of the sort. Hell, most of this is what i believe. Not truth, not fact. What i think. Now deal with it. And if any of you feel the need to comment calling me sick, cruel, evil, or any of that, because i don't care about things that end up being pointless to me, then too fucking bad, i don't give a damn. People are evil. That is a natural given.

Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann

Well. I buckled down. and in three or four days watched it all. Purely and utterly amazing. It displayed touch moral and personal choices for the characters, and withing the first five episode characterized simon and kamina, showed their closeness, and simons growth. We get to see simon change and grow and never quite fit as any kind of stereotype. And the same holds true to all the characters (well, cept yoko, Fanservice be her name) The plot is absolutly superb, and the ending left you sad but amazed. And the art style was fun while dark when needed, much like one piece. And The fights where amazing. Rarely do i say this, but all must watch this anime.

To shut up people

HEre is blog.

Hung out at kings island. Phone got messed up, 2,5,8,0 don't work, nor do send or increase volume.

Got to ride flight of fear and tomb raider. Raider was killed. Flight took only 10 minutes. It was epic. usually that takes 2 hours.

I am sad, i was feeling advernterous, no qualms or fears. I wanted to ride everything...I hope i have that next time i go. The adreniline...amazing...

Oh. And adding to my previous marriage list, add on clint, lienea, and kasha. forget number 15...