A little insight

Okay i know none will read this. Until i have what is, by my friends, known as an "emo period", were i think to hard, and realize i am deeply, profoundly alone. Were i shed my hyper mask, and become calm,and i look, rather than just see. I prefer that time, or being horribly angry, because i gain the ability to indeed stray away from everyone. I know it sound horrible. But even though i love my friends(or do i, well not really,i don't even know what love feels like, i think i will never really feel "love", or even true attraction.), well some of them, I always, always find myself trying to run, and hide from life, to keep away, turn my back on them, and start over. It is awful, i hate when i do that. But i do it anyways. Sometimes i want to move, move to some were new, cool, and fun, and just try to restart, get a view that is wider, to be able to look at more of the world, rather than see this small area of it i occupy.

I do so many things i hate for doing. I purposly piss people off. I act perverted, and if dared to do something perverted , i do it to fufill my sick, twisted perverted desires. I look at porn,hentai, lemon fanfics, incest stories, all that, its sad, i will rant more later.