So odd. There is a strange philosophical base on this whole situation. One hand has the blue ring of hope. The other orange ring of greed. Antithesis's adn conflicting sides...

I think i shall lean more to hope. All will be well.

but parent bitching about grades and whatnot, yada yada.

But things sorta going better, kinda doing work. Spanish not raping as hard. And i am trying to fight...but it is a hard habit to break, but i am doing more than i have in a long while, baby steps right?

But hell, maybe, if i try hard enough i can fix some of what i ruined...At least i can hope. Hope and initiave...Now i just gotta work harder. Damn, why am i so freaking bad at just jumping into stuff...Sorry, gimme some time, i am trying, i swear i am.

Things doing bit better overall, but will work on some stuff, almost caught up again...

Hrm, it is funny how people i dont know become so close to me. Bren and louie and phil, before i drifted from them. Alex and Lane. Now Will, Zach, Alex (not the one we all know and love, another) (who looks a lot like her actually) (and acts) , Kai, Keenon, Ryo, god, they all have become some of my best friends. Hell, i even met Zach and our Alex, and probably meeting Lane, and Alejandra (alejandra=other one, how we differentiate in this post) later sometime.

But god, how odd is it, and how much of a coincidence is all of evreything. If i didnt go and check back the old team zero site for nostalgia one time, how different everything would have been, me and Bren wouldnt have talked again...

If i didnt decide to try that amazin Yugioh RP, i wouldnt have met the others.

If i didnt befriend Emily and them instead of not talking to them, I wouldnt have joined the RP and met alex.

God, you know, there is the one concept in Dr. Who, where certain events influence everything and have one giant turning point. I can find a few of those in my life. The above mentioned things. January last year. So many.

So odd. But just my musings.