Ya know, i love how that quote fits Ayn Rand so well. Ya know, i am gonna go beyond the impossible and pathetic of this world. I am sick of greed, of want, of desire, lust, anything that is not inherently bad getting classified as bad. I am sick of saying i am sorry, or hearing it over things that don't need it. Ya know. In all damn honesty i am sick of people being viewed as horrible and selfish because they are "greedy" and sick of this world being so retarded. We live in such an amazing place, but we are so trapped by the horribleness of words, and losing our freedom when we should be free. I am sick of being in an economy in which greed and competition defines it, yet trying to be greedy is selfish and evil. I love seeing people complain about obama being a socialist, yet all the ways this country acts, how it seems all point to half the ideals of socialism. I am so sick of whenever me or anyone says "seems like" "acts" or anything of the sort it means "it is" "must be", when last i checked "seems old," "seems stupid," "seems dull," means "it appears to be but might not be".
I am sick of myself, my friends, hell, everyone getting guilty, depressed, and worried over such shit and pointless things. I am tried of romance having to be such a damn central part of people, and so defining. I'm tired of people acting as if lust is not 75% of romance and as if the whole damn point of romance, the thing deepo within our genetics, is procreation.
I am sick of me, and others feeling guilty when there is no damn reason to be. I am sick of feeling greedy when it is natural. I am sick of ranting and people taking these things so damn seriously.
I am so sick of morals impeding on everything. I am so sick of the amazing being thrown out the window because of "evil" acts. Guess the fuck what, i will use my favorite and common example of hitler. He was such a brilliant fucking man, but any joke of him, any reference is overshadowed by the "evil" he did. Well. Guess what, all the hate on hitler, yet no one fucking mentions Stalin, when he did worse. 20 mill vs 6 mill? I say stalin was more "evil" and hitler was way more amazing. Honestly. Hitler is one of the most respectable people ever if you look beyond petty morals.
I am sick of the hypocrisy that humans care about life. It is all bullshit. We obviously don't care too much about our own lives. and the illusion is dissolved by the fact we don't think twice to kill a harmless fly, or random insect. Especially little "creepy crawlies" which do nothing but disturb us. Not harm us. Honestly. Everything dies. Life in itself ends up being quite pointless. Within 100-200 years almost all life will be gone. Deal with it. Stop treating it like something precious, or at least stop trying to make me treat it that way.
I am sick of me caring so damn much about talking to all my friends, but now not tlaking unless they start it, unless i need to ask something. And then slowly just leaving the talk. I am sick of people getting ignored in talks, even if i ignore them, and they ignore me. I am sick of the bull shit from aim. And the drama of life.
Ya know what. Here is the deal. I want none of you to feel so damn depressed, and if your angry, fucking show it. Anger is good god damnit. And don't fucking bother us with contemplating suicide, or wondering what would happen if we dissappeared. And don't you dare get fucking depressed or hateful because of this god damn mother fucking post. Cause guess what, you could easily say this is to emily, alex, or who knows else, telling them to man up. You could say indirectly this is me chatising emily or alex, or even bren and shini, and everyone else. Well. Guess what. This can be taken as something you should all fucking listen to, because i have shown i know my fucking stuff, but this is for someone else. This is for me. This is so i can stop with all this shit. All this crap i know i do and hate. I need to grow up.
The funniest part, i am not angry really. Not sad. I am fine while typing this. Minorly irked. But in the end. I am in the best time of my life. And still going good. And now, well, i think i need to extend all this, work on that stuff i never care for, my dietary habits, my body, maybe excersize, and school work. Ya know. I bet i can do it. Hell. I know i could. Question is will i.
And don't even bother commenting on this. I don't want to hear it. None of this will matter. We will still do everything the same. Hell, ya wanna show you agree on any damn part of this do it. And don't get on my case about the mean stuff here. Or anything of the sort. Hell, most of this is what i believe. Not truth, not fact. What i think. Now deal with it. And if any of you feel the need to comment calling me sick, cruel, evil, or any of that, because i don't care about things that end up being pointless to me, then too fucking bad, i don't give a damn. People are evil. That is a natural given.
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