God dammit, why am i feeing worse and worse. Because i cant...no, i wont talk about it with other people...What is it? Why do i feel so depressed. >.< I cant even feel happy for others, put in the energy i use to, care about anything. Hell, the con is coming and i just dont even care...

And you know the best. How hypocritical i am. Telling others all this shit, yet i cant do anything. At all. I must be the worlds grandest liar, everything i say, some fancy, bullshit, random ass story. A lie.

God i hate myself.